DVD cover for I Am Potential

An important inspirational back to school episode…

Just in time for back to school, join the IC gang and guest victim, Hollis Pierce, as we discuss the film I Am Potential (2015). The movie is based on the true story of Patrick Henry Hughes, exploring the struggles and triumphs of Patrick and his family, particularly his father, who had to adjust his (beer league basketball) expectations and dreams for his son.

Our conversation discusses the film’s portrayal of disability, the performances of the actors, and the film’s context within the broader landscape of disability representation in media. We also discuss the film’s focus on the father’s involvement in a local basketball league, the family’s financial struggles and wrap with a discussion about the film’s depiction of a charity telethon.

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Grading the Film

As always, this film is reviewed with scores recorded in four main categories, with 1 being the best and 5 being the worst. Like the game of golf, the lower the score the better.

How accurate is the representation?

Jeff – 4 / 5

sar – 3 / 5

Hollis – 4.5 / 5

Total – 11.5 / 15

How difficult was it to watch the movie?

sar – 4 / 5

Jeff – 2.5 / 5

Hollis – 4 / 5

Total – 10.5 / 15

How often were things unintentionally funny?

sar – 2 / 5

Jeff – 5 / 5

Hollis – 3.5 / 5

Total – 10.5 / 15

How far back has it put disabled people?

Jeff – 4 / 5

sar – 2 / 5

Hollis – 5 / 5

Total – 10 / 15

The Verdict

A Crime May Have Been Committed

Transcript – Part 1

[Episode begins with the youtube trailer for I Am Potential]

[Theme song: Mvll Crimes – Arguing With Strangers on the Internet]

Jeff:

You are listening to invalid Culture, a podcast dedicated to excavating the strangest and most baffling media representations of disability. This podcast is all about staring into the abyss of pop culture adjacent films that never quite broke through because well, they’re just awful. So buckle up folks. The following content is rated I for invalid. I’m arguing with strangers on the in internet, not going out today

sar:

Because I’m feeling too upset with strangers on the internet and I’m winning

Jeff:

And I’m winning. Welcome back to another thrilling edition of Invalid Culture Back to School Edition. As always, I am your host tired, Dr. Jeff Preston trying to survive the start of turn and I am joined of course by our co victim Sarah Curry. How you doing, Sarah?

sar:

I am doing pretty great. This is the first fall. I’m not going back, so that’s pretty neat. But I have a niece and a nephew starting junior and senior kindergarten and I’ve taken some responsibilities there, so that’s nerve wracking.

Jeff:

How about you? That’s why you look so right now.

sar:

That’s right. That’s right. You

Jeff:

Don’t have to.

sar:

I’m on my third coffee, but don’t worry about it.

Jeff:

Okay. I don’t even know what coffee is anymore. I just inject it as an iv. That’s where I’m at right now. Welcome to September, folks. We are of course not the only people here though because I’m a bad person and I like to torture others. We are joined today by public intellectual wheelchair honky phenom and the host of the 21st Century Disability Podcast, Ottawa own Hols Pierce. How you doing Hols?

Hollis:

Hello, Jeff. Dr. Preston, I apologize.

Jeff:

Oh yeah, no, Jeff is great. I’m good with Jeff.

Hollis:

I know you as Jeff. I know when I am torturing you on the hockey on the court. I know you as Jeff.

Jeff:

Yep, absolutely. Yeah, so tell us…not everyone knows you as well as I do. Yeah, but what should people know about your Hollis?

Hollis:

Well, Jeff, you gave me a very generous introduction there, but as you say, my name’s Hollis Pierce. I am the host of 21st Century Disability. I had my master’s degree at Carleton in history where my thesis was on academic accessibility and yeah, that’s about it. That’s about it.

sar:

Did everyone say you predicted the future afterwards?

Hollis:

Yeah, absolutely.

Jeff:

It’s always great being right in that way, isn’t it? Finally, yeah. Finally,

sar:

Hollis woke up, just went outside and started shouting to no one in particular. I told you all. I told you so.

Hollis:

Exactly.

Jeff:

Yeah, pretty much. Pretty much. While trying not to catch a virus.

sar:

Yeah,

Jeff:

So we had a real special treat put before us. It’s back to school, as I said, so I thought we should do a back to school movie and back to school really is all about the unknown, right? You’re going back into the classroom and all you’re thinking about is about the potential that lays ahead of you. Is this the year you get a’s is this the year that you get a boyfriend or a girlfriend? Is this the year that you don’t vomit on your teacher? All of these potentialities exist, and so I thought we should watch a movie that is full of potential or is it the movie is I Am Potential. Now, what is this movie about? From the box: Patrick Henry Hughes was a talented musician who always wanted to be part of something bigger than himself. He dreamed of one day joining the University of Louisville Marching Band, but there was one problem. Patrick Henry was born without eyes or the ability to walk before he was born. His father, Patrick John had his own goals of athletic glory for Patrick Henry. Now, will he be willing to truly sacrifice for his son to achieve his dreams? I am Potential is the inspiring true story of sacrifice, perseverance, and realize it one’s God given potential.

sar:

I didn’t put it together until you actually read the box because we watched it on Tubby, so we didn’t have a box. Is I am Potential speaking to the dad?

Jeff:

No, the son, the son is the potential. I believe Patrick Henry is the potential Patrick John,

sar:

But Patrick Henry is Patrick Henry the second, right?

Jeff:

No, the dad is Patrick. John, this is going to be a big problem in this episode, so I’m going to say going forward, if we say Patrick, we mean the Disabled Boy, child,

sar:

Teenager, Patrick Junior.

Jeff:

If we say Papa Patrick, we mean the dad.

sar:

Gotcha. I feel like most of the journey was actually the journey of Papa Patrick from Beer League basketball to the potential of helping his son in the, what was it, standup band. It was

Jeff:

A marching band. Marching band.

sar:

Marching band,

Jeff:

Yes. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I also thought when I first read this, I wondered, well, wait, the dad was a musician. How was that not articulated? And then I realized no, Patrick Henry is in the musician. Of course, despite the fact that the movie does appear to center on the bad, but that is neither here nor there. The other thing I should note before we go any further in this discussion is that this is of course based on a true story. This is real Patrick Henry Hughes, his dad, Patrick John Hughes. All of these people exist or so were told. The Illuminati says that they exist, and this is not the first time that they’ve been in media. They actually had their first media breakthrough on the fifth season of Extreme Makeover Home Edition. You might remember them as the family whose house was not accessible, and so they brought the family on, they renovated the house, made it accessible, and during the episode Patrick got to go and play some music in London, England.

He played Ray Charles, “what’d I say”, because of course, to the cast of the Lion King in London, England. The other shout out, I very rarely would make a shout out to Extreme Makeover, but this episode was quite some time ago, and I want to note that at the end of the episode, the Extreme Makeover team made a tactile model of the home that they renovated so that Patrick Henry was able to feel the exterior of the home to quote, see what the new house looks like, which I thought was actually a pretty interesting accessibility feature in a show that is predicated on seeing the difference, right? It’s all about before or after. So I was like, you know what? Shout out of Stream makeover for being like actually go. We’re going to show you.

sar:

That’s actually pretty neat. That accommodation is a cool accommodation. Instead of move that bus, move that hand around our board,

Jeff:

Move that hand. They not only did move that bus, they also did move that band, the band block, the field that they also renovated to make it well, nothing. They just made it a better field. That’s it. So anyway, the whole episode was really inspiration porny, but I’m going to give them one point for their tactile model. So shout out out to them. What about you, Hollis? How does this description, does this description match what you watched?

Hollis:

Yes, I think it is because I found the whole movie to have potential, but it never really reached its potential,

Jeff:

Not unlike myself,

Hollis:

And I think one of the main reasons, well yes, as you say Jeff, it had a lot of holes in the story, but also the actors that were cast were not very effective. Papa was not good and Patrick was a bit rich also.

sar:

That was the kindest burning down of a film I think I’ve ever heard.

Jeff:

Well, let’s attach some names to it. So who in the world made this film? So I think first and foremost you’ll notice that on the box there’s this shout out to God’s will, which is maybe a bit odd for those of you who watched it because it’s not a particularly religious film, but it is produced by a religious film company. So I think that’s probably where that comes from.

Hollis:

Oh, I didn’t know that,

Jeff:

But more interestingly, the film was written and directed by a man named Zach Minors who’s had a very quiet career. He’s young, he’s directed a few shorts and some other very poorly rated movies. His first movie, which he made before he was 21, was called Pivot Point and it was topical about a school shooting. This was I Am Potential was his follow-up film going from school shooting to inspiration porn. I suspect he did this story because he also is from Kentucky and his film profession company is actually based out of Louisville, so he would probably have known the Hughes. He may have gone to school with the Hughes, I’m not sure. Other interesting note. His most recent movie is a documentary, it’s called Conversion, and the plot of this film is he took an ex Mormon mom, he paired them with a drag queen and they explored the dangers of the conversion therapy industry, which is actually kind of rad given the religious bend of this film. So shout Zach. That’s pretty cool. I’m going to check that film out. I think

sar:

I was somewhat convinced that this film was at least partially funded by the University of Louisville or whatever the institution is down there because if you watch the film, which don’t, the first 20, 30 minutes are all ad spots for Louisville. It’s wild.

Jeff:

Yeah, absolutely. I honestly feel like if Louisville did not pay heavily for this film, Zach, take them to court. You need to sue them for what you’re owed. Absolutely. Now Daddy Patrick who we’ve mentioned probably the most recognizable star, sorry, second most recognizable star in this film, thank You, is played by of course Respect is played by Purchase Jenkins. You probably recognize him as Ray Birds from Remember The Titans or perhaps as Billy Abbott in the Young and the Restless. I did not know this and I love that fact. He was in many episodes of the Young and the Restless, which melodrama that kind of fits in this script. Perhaps

sar:

He gives young and the restless energy for sure.

Jeff:

Yeah, a little bit, absolutely. Yeah. The son Patrick is played by Jimmy Bellinger, who I actually looked it up and he does look quite a bit like the person that he’s playing, so this might be a situation where they cast purely based on looks. He’s also a fairly accomplished actor. He’s had a lot of TV roles over the last 15 years. His biggest role, and I put that in the biggest air quotes possible, was that he played the character Chad in the movie, I believe it’s technically called Blockers, but there’s always a rooster in front of the word blockers. It’s a comedy also don’t watch. It also appeared, and this is true in one episode of the TV show Glee, so

sar:

Yikes.

Jeff:

The other recognizable actor in this movie is of course Judge Reinhold, and if you don’t know who Judge Reinhold is, you are no friend of mine and I am not going to tell you

sar:

The most recognizable actor.

Jeff:

There were some names in this film actually, surprisingly.

sar:

Yeah, I don’t know how they did it. Maybe because of the Louisville funding, they funneled that right into the actor salaries.

Hollis:

I found the mom to be fairly recognizable also.

Jeff:

Yeah, the mom was played by Jana Williamson, who you probably recognize from Parks and Rec

sar:

Ahhhhh.

Hollis:

That’s it.

Jeff:

That’s it. Also in the Good Place or my personal favorite played the principle in the TV adaptation of School of Rock. Not the principal in School of Rock, but rather the TV version of School of Rock.

sar:

That would be the antagonist then, wouldn’t it?

Jeff:

Depending on what side you are on fascism. Yes.

sar:

Fair.

Jeff:

Now we of course have our own opinions of this film, but there are many other people far more qualified than us that have watched it and shared some ideas. Now the good news, bad news is there actually was not a lot of critical response from this film as you probably could imagine, but I did find one really interesting deep dive that was written on a website called Catholic Lane, and this was written by Sister Hana Burns. Shout out sister. I enjoyed your review of this film, but I want to read one little blip that actually caught my eye, which I thought was an interesting thing to talk about. So Sister Burns says about I’m potential, I’m just going to have to tell you a little bit of the plot here, but the joy of watching the film, it is a joy will be the well-executed details.

Do you want to witness a conversion? The depths of a father’s love observe, slowly bonding with his namesake who will never be an athlete but whom dad recognizes has a love and talent for music from his youngest years. These scenes could melt boulders and can be applied to any dad who has the eyes to see and appreciate who his child really is to give up trying to fill his own ideas and dreams through his progeny. I really thought dad was going to walk out for the whole first part of the movie, but just the opposite.

sar:

I mean it feels kind of cheap blaming this movie for the whole, and I want to say it’s an American film dynamic of washed up middle-aged dad who has a favorite sport and hopes that his firstborn son becomes like an Olympic athlete in that sport. I don’t want to blame this film for that, but I think the extent to which they take the melancholic scenes of him looking at footballs or looking at baseballs, these extended medium shots, I thought it was a little bit ridiculous.

Jeff:

Yeah, they really hammered that home. My question for you, Holli, did you believe that the dad was going to walk out on this family at any moment in this film?

Hollis:

Yes.

Jeff:

Really?

Hollis:

Yeah.

sar:

Tell me more.

Hollis:

Yes, I truly believed, especially up until that one night when he came home and the mom was saying, I’m learning too. I’m learning too, and you’re never here. And then Papa Patrick said, I am here, and then he looked at his watch and he is like, oh, I have basketball in 30 minutes basketball.

sar:

It was hilarious because I was watching it with Jeff and he called that at the beginning of the eighties, like this guy’s definitely about to go out to his beer league basketball game

Hollis:

And then the life is just like my point. Exactly. You’re never here.

sar:

Yeah. The dad, for as much interest as he had in his first born son, future Olympian, track, star, football star, et cetera, he really had no interest in the baby.

Jeff:

No he was checked out.

sar:

He was absent for that face.

Hollis:

And also one thing that blew my mind is no interest for the baby’s safety as well because he perched a newborn up on the top of a piano and it’s not even a Dred piano, so he doesn’t have space to roll around on. It’s very thin piano against a wall that’s like barely bigger than him. So if he throws a hissy fit, the baby is falling.

sar:

I love that you specified the prop that they got for that. It’s like the classic suburban kind of baby’s first piano. It’s wood, it kind of looks organ like and yeah, you’re right. The baby barely fits on top of it because their proletarian piano is just not suited for six month old children.

Hollis:

Exactly.

Jeff:

Are you guys telling me that you weren’t raised atop a piano? That’s not a normal baby experience. You’re telling me. Okay.

sar:

I wish.

Jeff:

Okay.

Hollis:

But also I found that up until as well as you guys mentioned how she was hoping for her pulled her back from Louisville or a star pitcher. I found that, is it just me or did they mention in the movie that the Pop Patrick had a degree in music?

Jeff:

So that’s an interesting question. They do seem to imply in the movie that there is sort of music in the family that is a thing, but I think they actually undersell in this film how much music is a thing in the Hughes household because we learn, if you are like me and you’ve watched that episode of Extreme Makeover that all of the children play multiple instruments. Their living room is basically a recorded studio. They have multiple guitars, drums, everything.

sar:

Well, that’s weird because there’s that detail where they’re kind of making a big minor plot detail out of, oh, we really don’t want to buy you the trumpet. We already have this perfectly good piano over here. You’re kind stressing us out. So to hear after the fact that it’s a whole musical inclined family kind of doesn’t check out as far as the screenplay goes.

Jeff:

There’s a whole menagerie and I think it draws into question this other argument that the sister bless her heart makes, which is this notion that the father isn’t out his dreams through the child, and I don’t want to get too far ahead of ourselves, but put it in your minds folks. Was it maybe just that the dream changed if you couldn’t do the sports dream, maybe you could do the music dream instead. There’s a bit of a family band kind of thing going on here, but you Hollis and the sister were not the only ones that tapped into this question of divorce. So too the Amazon user, JEK teacher, which I’m hoping doesn’t mean junior kindergarten, but JUK teacher gave this film a five stars. It was titled Inspiring. This is the whole review. I did not edit this. What a child with major handicaps is born into a family. It often leads to the parent’s divorce and an unhealthy family and this family, everyone overcame something and everyone in the family grew and thrived. When you watch this movie, you’ll be glad you did it’s keeper.

sar:

I think the youngest child, at least from the screenplay perspective, overcame being completely and entirely forgotten and not even being introduced to the audience. He just appeared at the breakfast table one day halfway through the film and we were like, oh, there’s three of them.

Jeff:

I don’t even know the brother’s names. No, that is how little that are mentioned in this film.

Hollis:

They barely, they’re at the dinner table one time and then they’re in the backyard with the grandpa and the swing breaks,

sar:

So they overcame total obliteration of identity, which I think is fairly remarkable.

Jeff:

It is important for us to know. We do know that one of the children liked video games because in one scene he is playing on Game Boy and wearing a T-shirt that says video games. We know that

sar:

It was an SP too, which felt, because this was supposed to be the nineties kind of turn of the two thousands. I think that’s inaccurate. When did the SP come out?

Jeff:

I’m going to blow your mind. Well, okay, we’re going to jump forward because I am going to come back to this question of when in the hell is this film set because it will shock you

sar:

Really? Okay.

Jeff:

Okay, so that is the JEK teacher. I want to dig a little bit into this thing though about children with major handicaps often lead into divorce. Now, I don’t want to call anyone into the chat here inappropriately, but this is actually something that my parents were told when I was diagnosed. They were told You’re probably going to get a divorce, so be ready for that.

sar:

Really?

Hollis:

Oh Wow. Okay.

Jeff:

Spoil alert: they didn’t.

Hollis:

My parents were just told that I wouldn’t live past one.

Jeff:

Okay, I got four. They told me I was going to make it to four

sar:

Hollis. Did your parents divorce though?

Hollis:

Mine?

sar:

Yeah.

Hollis:

Yes, my parents did divorce.

sar:

Oh, they did? Okay, so we got one-to-one. Our pool isn’t big enough.

Jeff:

50%.

Hollis:

Your parents did not?

Jeff:

They did not. Mine did not. They made it through. They made it through. But I always find this such an interesting thing because I wonder, do we basically precognition these divorces? If you’ve just had a disabled child and then you’re told, oh, by the way, these always had the divorce, how many of the divorces are caused by a seeding? This notion that the relationship is going to fall apart anyways

sar:

And it becomes kind of the Sandra Bullock premonition where once you’ve seen it you’re like, well, now this is destiny. This is happening.

Hollis:

That’s a very good point.

Jeff:

I wonder, I really wonder because it’s also something that seems hard to wrap your head around that there is a lot of research on this. Lots of people have written, there’s lots of theories as to why this might be the case. What I would love to know is how much of that data is purely based in North American context? Do we see divorces happening in same rates elsewhere? Yeah.

sar:

Yeah?

Jeff:

I would be very curious to know if it’s like that everywhere or if this is another great instance where the data set is heavily biased because it’s all done by Americans predominantly.

sar:

Well, that would be most quant data sets purely produced by Columbia and Duke.

Hollis:

Yeah, also, Americans do not have free healthcare, so

sar:

that’s true.

Hollis:

They’re probably super stressed out of paying for their disabled and child.

Jeff:

Absolutely. I really want, they do say that a main driver in divorce tends to be financial strain and financial disagreements. That’s a big pusher of it. So are we actually seeing parents divorce because of disability or are they divorcing because of the financial burdens that are placed on American families by a complete lack of support for people with disabilities in that fun country to the south? I wonder. Someone should research that. I wonder. I’m on it. I’m

Hollis:

I’m on it.

Jeff:

That’s the follow-up episode. Yeah. Hollis is going to get to the bottom of this by the time I’m on his podcast. Perfect. Now this movie wasn’t well received by pretty much anybody else. IMDB user, I have no idea how to pronounce this. B hogan, I think maybe b Hogan. BBK,Ogan. I’m not sure. This user gave it a five out of 10 with the title Double Whammy, which is now actually the title of my memoir, double Whammy. Okay, so their review, this is a long one, but I have to read it all out because I think there’s a lot of meat here for us to dig into. Okay. B Hogan says, other than a reference by a female friend of the mother who says that God doesn’t give folks more burden than they can handle something I think that the survivors of suicide would disagree with, there is no overt preaching I and potential. It is the story of a couple whose firstborn is born without eyes and a crippling leg condition that requires many surgeries that in the end don’t help. It’s a double whammy for this poor kid, however, with a pair of glass eyes inserted where his real ones should have been.

Young Jimmy Bellinger, I think there’s a cross in the actor’s name there, young Jimmy Bellinger has an ear for music which is developed in an inspiring story. He is courageous. He is a courageous and ucky young lad and his parents played by Burgess Jenkins and Trevor Williamson have the right stuff. I certainly was impressed by the story, but if this had not been produced by the fundamentalist American Family Association, we might’ve had a serious discussion on his healthcare coverage. This kid was born with a preexisting condition and the family finances are strayed to the breaking point. Sounds like they could have used universal healthcare coverage, but this film was not about to take the story in that direction. I Potential is a good story decently, if not greatly acted by its unknown cast with the exception of Judge Reinhold who plays the young man’s doctor, sorry, editor’s note. Judge Reinhold is not his doctor. Judge Reinhold is the doctor who runs the marching band. This film was not made. This film not viewed by a fundamentalist church audience raises more questions than it answers.

sar:

How dare she pick out Judge Reinhold to be the standout?

Jeff:

I know, right?

sar:

In a blatantly below mediocre cast, the only person who was cast in Fast Times at Ridgemont High was the only underperformer. I think not,

Jeff:

Yeah, yeah. Also, yeah. But I think this is an interesting point and I’m glad that we got here, which is how there is a part of this story about finances and about the cost of living with a disability, which I actually kind of appreciated. Even if they didn’t dig down super deeply into it in the film,

sar:

It was surface level and even saying surface level is a little bit generous, and I think she’s right. That had a lot to do with the funding authority because I would say maybe not no preaching because a major plot point was his Christian TV performance and he literally wore sweatshirts about Jesus and went to Catholic schools. I guess it’s maybe covert preaching, but I felt pretty preached to in the context of this movie, and I also think that the fact that he is religious, at least in the context of the screenplay, becomes kind of a core tenet of this kid’s personality. He dresses like the kind of Bible banging Christian Mormon, I don’t know. He’s got the performance where he is seen by, we don’t know, they didn’t show a clip of the audience, but they said that the arena held six. It all kind of keeps coming back to that over and over. So then if you’re going to have so much of the film B about how Jesus or God won’t give you loads that you can’t handle A, why is he crawling into the kitchen? B, why does he not go to a school that capitalizes on that instead of where he ends up with this marching band that doesn’t think he can do anything? It didn’t add up for me.

Hollis:

Yeah, no, I would absolutely completely agree with all of those thoughts.

Jeff:

Now, Amazon user, Kate Snell did not agree with some of the praise of this film. They gave it two stars, no title and their review is boring.

sar:

Perfect. Review. Five Star review.

Jeff:

Five star review, two stars. I want to know why they gave it two stars, but only one word.

sar:

It wasn’t worth two words we could have done. Very boring.

Jeff:

Very boring. Sure. Now I’m about to offend every German who listens to this show, and I’m sure there are dozens of you, but letterbox user Nick Un 18 shoots back with a five star view on letterbox stating “So traurig und schön” which apparently translates to “so sad and beautiful.”

sar:

I didn’t think that was terrible German, but Hollis is the one watching dark right now. Hollis?

Hollis:

Das ist gut.

Jeff:

Yes, phenomenal. Unfortunately, the only German I really know are swear words that are not maybe the most appropriate for this moment.

Hollis:

I wouldn’t say it was sad. I would say it’s confusing.

sar:

Yeah.

Jeff:

Yeah. I think that’s fair. I didn’t find it sad really at all, but I also didn’t find it beautiful. Oh God, no.

sar:

No. I think they tried to create some levity and some middle ground and in trying to approach that levity and what is fairly objectively a sad story about a baby born with no Eyes, they kind of overshot it and it became kind of this quirky lifetime film about supposedly sad material that’s supposed to turn good. I don’t know. The tone was off

Hollis:

And I don’t know. I think they really skipped over a lot of potential barriers. Absolutely, and I was absolutely, I only found out it was based on True Story after I watched it and I was like, why? Because I kept on thinking, why is this dad making these decisions?

Jeff:

That is a question that I have had since I’ve watched that film.

Hollis:

Yeah, because just to bring up the idea of financing again, he turned down a major promotion at work that would’ve provided them with plenty of financial resources at home, and also the dad was just way too old and protective of his son.

Jeff:

Yeah. There was a lot of that sort of fragility, like the fragile disabled kid thing going on throughout this film. So those are some of the opinions of it, but I think it’s probably time for us to get a little analytical. Are we ready to unpack the movie I Am Potential,

sar:

Please. It’s a shallow box, but we can do it

Hollis:

Oh no. I’ve got many opinions.

Jeff:

Buckle up friends, because Hollis had more thoughts about this movie than the people who made it.

Our story begins with an aggressive Louisville, Kentucky montage to assure the viewers that we are indeed in Louisville, Kentucky office worker and deeply committed pick up basketball player Patrick John Hughes eagerly awaits the arrival of his first son, who he is sure will be a star football player for the University of Louisville because well, we’re in Louisville. Okay, get it. Spoiler alert. Patrick Henry Hughes will not be a star football player because he’s disabled. The doctors informed the Hughes that their son has a variety of impairments due to a rare condition, including the fact that he has no eyes despite Mama Patrick’s suspicion that the doctors just didn’t notice that their son did in fact have eyes. The doctors are absolutely sure he has no eyes. They checked at least twice and honestly it seems like something that would be kind of tough to miss. The hugs are now confronted with a brutal reality. Their son will require a series of surgeries, may never walk, and will require painful glass eyeballs to be jammed into his bloody eye sockets for the foreseeable future.

This puts an immediate strain on the marriage leaving Papapa to wonder how he will ever manage to be a father while also being a peak performer in casual adult men’s league basketball. Now, before we get into discussion of the first step of this film, I want to note that we get a slightly different origin story from the Extreme Manover Home Edition episode. It’s in this episode that Paul Patrick will explain that he actually quit his day job right away early on in the child’s life working nights instead so that he was able to take care of the baby that has been brought back to their home. We also learned that early in his life he has glass eyes surgically implanted, which also in my opinion perhaps draws into question this weird disclosure around the gross bloody pressing in of the glass eyes. Maybe that conversation happened, maybe it didn’t, but that was not really portrayed on the Extreme Home makeover disclosure of the origin stories of Patrick.

Hollis:

Okay, well, first of all, I think it had a lot of ableism

sar:

Absolutely

Hollis:

In the show itself. Just for one, the idea that he had to have eyes in the first place. It’s like, okay, can you not just leave him as he is or put sunglasses on him or you know what I mean? Or was that a health concern because of it?

Jeff:

Well, so they say in the film that if they don’t put the eyes in that his head won’t form correctly. Apparently that’s the destination of the counter. But

sar:

Counterpoint, Jeff and I did debate that when we watched it. I said, I don’t understand why they need to put something in his head either. He can just have no eyes.

Hollis:

Yeah, I am of the same opinion.

sar:

Yeah, I think if he already can’t walk and he needs several spinal surgeries, having minor facial deformities would be the absolute least of this baby’s problems.

Hollis:

Yeah, exactly. And I have not watched the Extreme makeover. Holman didn’t show, but was he in the movie? He quit his job as an accountant or something like that and he then became a luggage carrier cursing, and so was that an accurate depict or

Jeff:

If you believe Home Makeover? Absolutely not. So we will talk about this in a moment, but in the movie he quit his job when his son is in university in the Home makeover version of the story. He quit his job when Patrick was a baby to take care of him. That was the point. Was it still to become a luggage handler? It’s just said that he works overnight, which you presumably could do if you were a baggage person and that he wasn’t making a lot of money. Sorry, that was the other part of the Home Makeover episode is there is a big part about how Father Patrick Patrick and has a lot of guilt that he hasn’t been able to provide for his family financially as well as he had hoped that he would be able to for his son. I doubt whether or not that’s just a part of the in Extreme Home Makeover, the device of that show that you have to, they’re not going to go in and renovate Kanye’s home,

sar:

But you’ve kind of got two competing devices here. So I’m kind of inclined to believe the truth is somewhere in the middle because I felt the film kind of went overboard in portraying this single income earner. Even if he is an accountant at Warren Buffet’s company, there’s no way he’s making the kind of money where they’re picturing him with the Victorian style multi bedroom home with the huge backyard. He’s got three kids and they’re all in sports. His kid with no eyes has had umpteen surgeries. It just didn’t make sense. The wife says multiple times, she’s not working. This is America. It doesn’t check out. So you’ve got the Tai Pennington take on the one hand where he’s like, oh, they didn’t have two nickels to rub together and they skipped so many surgeries and two of their kids are currently starving and the screenplay take of finances are tough, but we’re still managing to have all of these luxuries that look great on film and I think maybe the truth is they were living lower middle class and kind of scraping by. Would that be accurate?

Jeff:

Potentially, yeah. I mean it should be noted that they are in Kentucky and cost of living is lower in the South depending on where you are. Obviously,

sar:

I imagine access to healthcare is also lower in the South

Jeff:

Depending on where you are. Again, they’re in Louisville and University cities tend to have better access because often there’s hospitals associated with university. But yeah, so there is a lot of focus though at the first third of the movie really is this expose of all of its medical problems. That’s really the main focus of the first bit of the film. Now you might be wondering, well, how long do they spend on this? It’s about 10 minutes. It feels like three hours.

sar:

It’s excruciating for sure.

Jeff:

It’s just on and on and on. So let’s move forward then in our story because that’s kind of boring.

sar:

Patrick was six months old in this film for almost half the film

Jeff:

And then immediately jumps forward to university. So life at home is almost immediately rocky for the Hughes family. Papa Patrick is working long hours doing some sort of office work, something to do with computers and PowerPoint slides, maybe a calculator.

sar:

I think Holli is right. It gave the vibe of accountant.

Jeff:

Something? Yes, and he’s working even longer hours at his pickup basketball league, often leaving his wife Patricia to feel as though she is fully responsible for raising the profound disabled child. I’m not joking. He routine and comes home at the start of the film and is like, babe, and you assume that this is high stakes. He’s on his way to the NBA. No, it is a Jersey list, pickup league. They don’t have jerseys.

sar:

Jeff. He’s point guard. He’s the backbone of the team. Disabled son or not.

Jeff:

You have to be there for the boys.

Hollis:

They spent more time focusing in on his beer league basketball than they did on his son’s education.

sar:

Absolutely. Yeah. The beer league basketball was a solid B plot of this film and unsurprisingly it went nowhere. There was no development whatsoever.

Jeff:

I really hope that this was the director that Zach had heard these stories like I’m imagining he interviewed the mom and the dad separately and the dad was like, I was at work and it was busy and I was playing sports and stuff, and then the mom was just like, he would not stop it with the basketball. He would not stop talking about it. He would not stop playing it. I am just trying to survive and he’s playing this minute and so I’m wondering if he was like, what if the film also inappropriately focused on basketball Papa? No reason Patrick plays five days a week every night he was in there grinding. I guess that’s

sar:

Okay. Alternate take what if, and this goes back to a conversation that we were having earlier and is definitely giving the film too much credit. What if they meant to have that as an intentional juxtaposition? Because so much of the dad’s character is, oh, my firstborn son is never going to be an Olympic athlete, and he’s trying to live that dream up until the point where he kind of has that not so triumphant throw of the basketball against his office net. And he goes like, okay, forget it. Sports is over. It’s all music for me now. But it lines up in the context of the screenplay that so much of his acting time is him playing the sports and dealing with his grief through sports and dealing with the collapse of his marriage, which doesn’t actually collapse through sports and only when he releases two the music gods. So therapy could have helped here. Does he give up the five days a week pickup basketball? So maybe it was a point about the characterization of the dad and it just doesn’t translate. You really have to sit here and think about this. Yeah,

Jeff:

I think it was one of those situations where it was so aggressive in your face that then you started to wonder why that you started to think, well, maybe this is leading somewhere else. It can’t be that straightforward. It can’t just be a motif if they’re constantly going back to this basketball game and then it

sar:

And then it was…just a motif.

Jeff:

It is just a motif.

sar:

You were hood winged to the entire time. Pick up basketball just like in real life is going nowhere.

Jeff:

It will end and it ends because mama Patricia puts her foot down and she forces Papa Patrick to become an actual father, to miss basketball for once in his life and to stay home and take care of his son. During this time, Patrick Clearance that his son is actually kind of cool, although he takes the nasty poops and his animal nature appears to be soothed by the dulcet notes of the piano. We then jumped forward an indeterminate amount of time with Patrick now and grown child who has navigated the world with a manual wheelchair and is RACA in the piano hard. Patrick also has two new brothers, one of which we knew was coming, one of which magically appeared, and the only thing we ever learned about them is that one runs fast and did the other live video games. Patrick’s musical talents are immediately put to the test when he was invited in front of a live studio audience to perform his song, the Crusade Canon Ball during a televised edition of the 40th annual WHAS Crusade for Children Peon. Okay, so I want to come back to a question that Sarah asked earlier, which is when do you think this movie was set?

sar:

It was really difficult to determine, honestly.

Jeff:

Do you have a guess? Hollis? Do you have a guess? When do you think this movie was set?

Hollis:

Man judging by his dream car. I would say early nineties.

sar:

Yeah, that was going to be my guess. Set design looked very heavily nineties inspired. That was definitely the kind of lower class income home I grew up in.

Jeff:

Right. Yep. Okay. Early nineties. Okay, buckle up. Buckle up. Despite the broadcast looking like it was filmed in the 1960s with people from the 1990s, this Crusade for Children telethon actually happened on June 4th, 2005. A decade later.

sar:

Okay.

Hollis:

What??

Jeff:

Yeah. It would raise over $5 million and gave grants to 148 agencies in the Kentucky and Indiana areas

Hollis:

Sorry for my ‘wow’d surprise there.

sar:

That’s amazing. So the SP actually is not anachronistic. The SP is totally accurate and it’s just filmed ridiculously.

Jeff:

Yes. Now, I also wanted to share this because I read this and I’m not ashamed to admit I almost peed myself. Okay. This is a quote from the WHAS website about this year’s telethon

sar:

You dug deep for this.

Jeff:

I always do. I can’t stopped. Okay. And I quote “for the first time in recent memory there was a standin room only crowd on hand for the free kickoff variety show at the Kentucky Center’s Bombard Theater. Many think that it was because of the talented trio who returned to their hometown to headline the show, Lance Burton, max Finn and Marty Polio. Others speculated it was because of the free glowing star necklaces that was given to everyone in attendance.”

sar:

I would a hundred percent go to a concert if they were giving me a glowing star necklace. I would go see bands I actively hate to get that.

Jeff:

I love just this complete the dichotomy of it’s like either it was because of the hometown heroes or it was the free giveaway.

sar:

We’re not sure. It was definitely the giveaway. Sorry, Marty Polio.

Jeff:

Marty Polio will never recover from this.

sar:

Sorry man, you’re not a pull.

Jeff:

Yeah, they raised a lot of money. I will say it wasn’t the most that they’ve raised. It was actually a bit of a downed year old, but it was a lot of money and it was, as I said, the first time in recent memory that there was a standing room only in crowd. So it was a pretty big deal. 2005, not 1991.

sar:

Contrast that with the cinematography where I kept making fun during that scene. They would never give us a wide shot of the audience. They just showed us two or three audience members at a time and I was like, they’re not going to do it. They’re not going to give me the wide shot. And they never did. So we actually come out of the film not knowing if this event was even attended. He just did it

Hollis:

Unless the only reason, and I highly doubt that the screenplay was this…?

sar:

Savvy?

Hollis:

Creativity is that it might have been in order to exemplify his experience of it as he was never seeing the crowd. He was only hearing the crowd.

Jeff:

I got you just say that in the script, right? They’re like, is that how many people are there? And he is like, just imagine that they’re on their underwear and he is like, what does that look like? Yeah,

sar:

That says some dipshit comment about picturing them and we’re like, dad, the entire movie is about me not having is.

Jeff:

Yeah, that’s sort of the point here. I think that’s probably, that might be what the director writer says. I think that’s what Zach might say if you ask them. I think probably the real answer is they couldn’t afford that many extras. They afford that many people in a building for one shot. So they scrap it.

sar:

You know what they should have done? They should have done a giveaway.

Jeff:

If they had had some necklaces, some star necklaces,

sar:

I would get some butts in seats.

Jeff:

Come on, bro. Now, I was actually really interested to see the Crusade for Children mentioned in this film because of course the Crusade for Children actually plays a fairly significant role in disability history. It was a major part of the charity world that we understand today. Not specifically the WHAS, but this broader Crusade for Children thing was a big deal in say, Britain. And some scholars would point back to these types of activities as really playing that formative role in how we understand disabled people through things like the telethon. And so I thought this is actually an interesting little piece of disability history that was included in this hall. Do you want to opine for us on telethons and charity and disability?

Hollis:

Honestly have never been my stitch and having muscular dystrophy, I have been told so much about that American muscular dystrophy telethon and how many people are so dedicated to that thing and me saying, yeah, that’s not, I don’t know. I really didn’t identify, I never identified with any kind of telephone

sar:

Context question. If we’re talking about classic mid eighties, early nineties telethons, that kind of predates my TV watching by quite a bit. Would that be kind of like the two thousands live aid? Is that the spectrum of comparison here? No,

Jeff:

No. Nowhere near

sar:

No. Bigger?

Jeff:

No. So I can actually directly speak to this because I was on the Muscular Dystrophy Telethon.

sar:

Hell yeah. Hell yeah.

Jeff:

I was the first national campaign assistant for MTC, which is the Canadian version that runs the thing that Jerry Lewis was running in the States. And so I was actually on the early nineties versions of the Canadian Telethon.

sar:

Oh yeah, dude.

Jeff:

Which would have satellite pieces from the Jerry Lewis that was brought in. So it really was a variety show. So the idea was bring in a bunch of celebrities of some variety that would be sort of mid-tier celebrities. So in modern day, you’re not getting Chapel Rowan in, but you might be getting in some 41 people that were big at one point but aren’t big at all anymore. But the studio audience is not big. When we were doing it in Toronto, when I was there in the early nineties, there would’ve been maybe 50 people in the studio audience.

sar:

Oh wow.

Jeff:

But the objective was make cheap television and have people call in donations. That’s the name of the game. And so you get a lot of local flare as well. So you’d get Fear is a local kid who’s really good at Hula hoop or Fear is a local savant musician that everyone knows in Toronto for whatever reason. So it’d be sort of that type of thing. And then celebrities were people like Kurt Browning or Doug Gilmore who was at the center for the Maple Leafs at the time. It was kind of that sort of vibe and they would just run these things and you’d be told to call in. So really the better comparison is not live aid, it’s the PBS telethons. Those like call-a-thons that PBS dide

sar:

I forgot that.

Jeff:

That’s the vibe. That’s the vibe that would…

sar:

PBS telethon because of viewers like you.

Jeff:

Precisely. You fill in and you might get to be on TV when you call and donate. That was sort of the schtick.

sar:

So the point is not really the actual shtick that’s happening on screen. It’s going viral in today’s terms. The point was to produce viral content

Jeff:

Parade a bunch of people’s eyes so that they phone in and donate.

Hollis:

Exactly. Interesting.

Jeff:

And so in Canada, we did it different in the States. So in Canada it was largely about entertainment that we were trying to entertain people. I was trying to entertain people. I did it for the art.

Hollis:

Well, I don’t think you’re trying to entertain people. You entertain people, period.

sar:

And he still does to this day.

Jeff:

Yeah, thank you. Thank you.

sar:

Hell yeah. Hollis.

Jeff:

Yeah, Hollis coming up big. I’ll pay you later. In the States, they also entertained, but I think a lot more life, the Crusade for Children, the entertainment as has been written by authors like, okay, Longow in the lovely book telethon, the telethon was all about the Pity parade.

sar:

Right.

Jeff:

It was about rolling out sort of sad, pathetic, disabled people and saying, imagine if this was you, are you sad? Donate. And so Paul k Longmore referred to it as basically a annual Tiny Tim event in which the viewer is Scrooge and they have to decide whether or not they will part with their pennies and help the Crotchet family, these disabled people on tv, or are they going to be greedy and hold onto their pennies.

sar:

This is actually the format that Sarah McLaughlin perfected, right?

Jeff:

Absolutely. Yeah, yeah. She was making the soundtrack for this stuff.

sar:

Yeah,

Jeff:

Right. Yeah. And so this is really what’s going on here. And so what I find for the interesting about this is that this moment is shown as the coming out party in a lot of ways for Patrick Hughes to play his song and to vet the charity that has helped him and his family presumably. But what’s actually going on in this telethon, I don’t want to say it’s more sinister, but it’s certainly a lot more about the pity and the inspiration porn as we would call it now, or actually kind of did then. This is 2005. It’s not that long ago that when this was happening. Yeah.

sar:

Okay. So would you say based on the information you have, so Courteously given me, that kind of puts the film itself as written in this kind of super positional role as yet another telethon. It’s a movie about how he went on the telethon and then went on to become some minor student in a college marching band. But the writing and the cinematography and the positioning of the narrative kind of creates another telethon because the point wasn’t the story. It was what you do after the story. How bad do you feel right now? So I got Sarah McLaughlin yet again.

Hollis:

I would completely agree.

sar:

Interesting. So if you position this movie as a telethon, I actually think the movie’s a lot more interesting. I think if you take it at face value, it is a boring piece of garbage. If you super position it to, this was a 1.5 hour attempt to get you to Google conditions like this and donate money. This is kind of an interesting marketing strategy.

Jeff:

No. So I think that theory is dead on. I think that’s what this is trying to do. I think that’s what this movie is trying to do. It’s translating the telethon experience into a 90 minute film. Now, I want to put an important editor’s note here, which is that it is possible that the Handball crusade happened at a much earlier date. It may actually have been in the nineties because the performance of the Canal Crusade may have happened on an earlier date. But the 2005 is the date that’s listed on the WHAS as in performant. However, if you’ve done the math, you will notice that this is actually the year before he will attend the University of Louisville. What the movie doesn’t include is a variety of other performances that, in my opinion, are actually a lot more interesting. For instance, he attended and performed a song, amazing Children on an episode of Maury Povich in 1990. He also performed numerous times at the Grand Old Opry. He also performed, yeah, if you go to his website, he has been performing all over the place at some of the biggest stages, even before he arrives on Instream Home Makeover. I’m curious why then they focused in on the Children’s Crusade and not any of these other big things that he was doing. And the answer perhaps is exactly what you just said, Sarah.

sar:

Well, I think funding is also a big one. I think it’s a combination of the telethon and the fact that a clearly Christian organization has purchased the rights to this film.

Jeff:

Sure, fair enough.

sar:

I don’t think they’re going to show his performance on Maury Povich, however, I would’ve loved that cut.

Jeff:

I’m assuming that it ends with someone throwing a chair at him, right?

sar:

Yeah. I think the movie would be a lot more interesting had they gone with the Maury Povich cut. But to get the funding they had to do the Christian summer camp

Hollis:

Or having Maury Povich tell him, you are not the father. He is not the father. So good.

Jeff:

Oh, it’s a super different movie. If you go down that rabbit hole,

Hollis:

See, if Papa Patrick was told that he is not the father, he would’ve been like, I’m out. I’m focusing on Beer League.

Jeff:

I’m going back to basketball.

sar:

That would’ve led to the divorce. It all comes full circle.

Jeff:

It all comes together. Yeah, it all comes together. Divorce, not because of disability, but because of infidelity,

sar:

Maury Povich…

Jeff:

Maury Povich.

Jeff:

And thus concludes another episode of Invalid Culture. Thank you for listening. I hope you enjoyed it or not. Either way, please take a second. If you haven’t to subscribe to our podcast on whatever platform you’re using, tell a friend, and better yet, do you want to be a victim on the podcast? Go onto our website, invalid culture.com, submit your name. We would love to terrorize you with a bad movie. Have a bad movie of your own that you think that we should watch. Again, jump on our website, culture.com, submit it, and we would love to watch the trash. Be sure to tune in again next week for part two where we will start to dig into the movie and find out whether or not it wins. The coveted Jerry Lewis seal of approval.

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Transcript – Part 2

[A clip from the film plays to start the podcast]
Doctor:
We discovered some anomalies. What do you mean anomalies? Patrick Henry was born with a rare condition. It’s called bilateral an ophthalmia. He was born without eyes. I mean there must be some kind. The ultrasound said that he was healthy. I’m sorry, it’s easily missed. I’m afraid there’s more.
[Intro theme song, “Arguing with Strangers on the Internet” by Mvll Crimes plays]
Jeff:
You are listening to Invalid Culture, a podcast dedicated to excavating the strangest and most baffling media representations of disability. This podcast is all about staring into the abyss of pop culture adjacent films that never quite broke through because well, they’re just awful. So buckle up folks. The following content is rated I for invalid.
Jeff:
Welcome back to another episode of Invalid Culture, part two of I Am Potential. As always, I am your host, Jeff Preston, and I’m here again with Sarah Curry, co-host and our special guest victim Hollis. Alright, let’s get right to it. Okay, so let’s flash forward. Fat Trick has now grown up and I want to note that we literally do flash forward. This movie has a series of blackout jump cuts in which suddenly people are just older and we are expected to understand that. So Patrick has grown up and despite a few surgical and swim related setbacks has now entered high school. He has developed a new musical passion in part because of his swing related injury. The trumpet and marching bands, things are still tough for the hues though as Papa Patrick is being absolutely ridden at work by his boss, who is never satisfied and he even will have to sell his beloved car to help pay for Patrick’s escalated medical bills. As Patrick moves toward graduation from high school with his new best friend Bryce, he has set his eyes on a noom goal,
Got him joining the University of Louisville marching band Patch is accepted to the U of L to study something who knows, doesn’t matter, but he is confronted with a bigger problem marching band leader Dr. Greg Byrne, who I assume has a PhD in PET and a postdoc in funk is worried about the manual wheelchair moving around the field and thinks that it just might not be possible. Luckily, after some modifications to his chair, which basically consists of putting bigger tires on the front, that problem is resolved. But who will push him around the field when he plays? Obviously it’s his high school friend Bryce, right? Of course not. Papa Patrick has a crisis of faith in corporate capitalism. He quits his job despite being offered a full control of the company as the next regional manager, CEO, unclear, and he will take up a night job working as a baggage handler at the local airport and goes full time on the marching band. Our film eventually concludes with the father and son duo achieving their dream, taking the field at Allan Federal Credit Union Stadium and playing at the University of Illinois football game and the movie is over. Praise be.
sar:
I think I said when we were watching it that the movie could have honestly started when he was in high school. We learned precious little from the first 45 minutes of the film, we learned that he is disabled. His parents are kind of sad about it. His dad really fucking loves basketball, and that’s about it. That’s half the film’s runtime,
Jeff:
And Patrick appears to have had a wildly more interesting life in the late nineties and early two thousands that could have been great cover for this film.
Hollis:
I’m very happy that we’re getting into this part of the film because these are what my major thoughts are is that this film would’ve been so much better had they had more than two scenes of him in high school.
sar:
Yeah,
Hollis:
Fair.
sar:
It’s true.
Hollis:
Because day one, he gets there and the popular kid is making fun of him. Day two, him and the popular kid are best friends and they’re running around the hallway and then suddenly he turns the corner falls out of his chair and suddenly Papa Patrick is so over their jet of him that he decides no one else will ever push my son around. Excuse my language, put a fucking seatbelt on the guy, right? Yeah. And put it by your seatbelt on a guy. Take the job promotion, have the opportunity to pay for a full-time attendant and provide for your family.
Jeff:
Yeah, it is a baffling turn in the story, which makes a lot more sense in the context of it probably didn’t happen this way.
sar:
Yeah, I seriously doubt it. I don’t think this guy quit his job to be a pusher in a varsity marching band
Jeff:
Unless this is actually the dream. If he had two dreams, either football star or musician star, and the musician one really did pan out, maybe people have done less to become a stage mom. Right?
Hollis:
Yeah.
sar:
I could not understand, and this is going off Hollis’s earlier point, why they introduced Bryce only to have him play a totally non-committal role as an occasional audience member. I thought that they were introducing Bryce to be kind of his principal assistant in this varsity marching band,
Jeff:
And I’m so glad you brought that up, Sarah, because I think I might actually have an answer to that question.
sar:
Excellent.
Jeff:
Now, in the Extreme Makeover Home edition episode, Patrick Henry often refers to his blindness as an ability that it provides him with different kinds of sight, and one of those types of sight he explains is that he does not see race literally and therefore does not discriminate. He says, those as in race have no meaning to me whatsoever. I just see what’s within a person. So I don’t want to say that Patrick was the first, I don’t see race, but also he literally doesn’t see race.
sar:
Yeah. He’s actually innovating in this argument.
Jeff:
A little bit perhaps? But it also maybe glosses over a little bit what race is as three white people are about to enter into a conversation on race and what it means. So this should be great and not at all.
sar:
Totally inappropriate.
Jeff:
That is why I fully believe this is why that is in there is because this is a thing that Patrick Henry has been saying. He said it on the actually blank over home edition. I’m guessing it’s something that he’s been brought up in other contexts, whether it’s interviews or what have you…
Hollis:
They do briefly mention it in high school as in the cafeteria. The friend was like, oh, so you only see black? And then he says, I don’t know what black is.
Jeff:
Right, exactly. And so I think that’s literally the reason that this was placed today. I think that might be the only reason that Bryce is there was for them to play this heartwarming turn of phrase that he doesn’t see race.
sar:
Well, I mean the whole film is disappointing, but it’s kind of a disappointing addition in what is already a disappointing film because, and I’m sorry Patrick, if you ever hear this, the kind of foe enlightenment around, oh, I call my disabilities abilities and Special Olympics and I don’t see race or see color. It’s something we teach children, and then as you develop context and history and basic intersectionality, you come to the realization that, okay, there are some very legitimate things that get in the way of some people having more and less than others. So if you want to be a truly compassionate person, you can’t get on the telephone telephone, not telephone both and say, I don’t see rays, but all black people are the same, all disablement is the same. It doesn’t work, but it works in the context of this telethon. For the same reason that Sarah McLaughlin holding up puppies with two broken legs and says, give me money or adopt. It works in that you’re kind of glossing over the moral incongruity there to get to the money,
Jeff:
Right? Yeah. It flattens it, right? It flattens everything down, which I know is the thing that happens when it’s a 90 minute film, things get flattened in the process of 90 minutes.
sar:
I’m not sure his entire moral outlook should have been flattened for a 90 minute film about him as a person, but otherwise I concur.
Jeff:
Yeah. What other the thoughts did you have about the school system, Hollis?
Hollis:
Some of it was very relatable, other parts of it or that is not…No, no. The fact that high school was enjoyable to him as a disabled student was baffling to me because there’s no way he, he did not ever experience any kind of bullying. That cafeteria scene I thought was about to jump into a series of bullying that he experienced in high school, but then the next scene, they were best friends somehow that it didn’t really skip, it didn’t transition.
sar:
Yeah. I got the sense, and Jeff can correct me if he got a different sense that the movie was trying pretty hard not to disparage the very living person, Patrick. So if there were too many scenes dedicated to embarrassing parts of his persona or episodes of his life, he would rather not relive. There’s this ya trope where a bunch of the characters become fast friends by way of these canny insults toward one another that then get executed in real life a lot more messily and less successfully than they do in stuff like Fault in our stars. And I think they were kind of drawing on that narrative in my mind to try to make him and what’s it, Bryce Fast friends. I don’t think he actually had a stunning quip in the moment of his bullying, but for the movie he did, and I think it’s because it’s servicing the narrative and the telethon of cult of personality of Mini Patrick.
Jeff:
Yeah. Well, yeah. I think that this is all about the notion of his charisma is enough to win over anybody, even a staunchest critic, a bully in high school,
sar:
Yeah. And we’ve all been to high school, that doesn’t work.
Jeff:
I won over none of my bullies. My stunning charisma was useless in the face of bullying.
Hollis:
Exactly.
Jeff:
Yeah. But it is interesting, this notion, and this is perhaps where unintentionally the film is maybe a bit religious in that Patrick does have this sort of messianic nature about him being risen up and a moral paragon. He works hard, he’s dedicated to what he does. There are no half measures here. He wins over people, he finds solutions, he inspires people. But this is exactly what Bill Peace, I think would describe as the good cripple that he’s performing the proper way to be a disabled boy at this time, sort of turn of the century millennial babies.
sar:
Yeah. I don’t even think he tosses out an insult now that I think about it. Right. He doesn’t even do that.
Jeff:
No, he doesn’t. Which it could have been interesting. Like you said, if this movie started with him entering high school, you could’ve actually gotten into some of this messy stuff. I mean, the race politics of Louisville is going to be far more complicated than it was addressed in this film. I would imagine. It’s true. I’m not from Louisville, but I would imagine in Kentucky there’s some fun stuff going on in this.
sar:
I want to know Patrick’s arc of telling other high school kids, 15, 16 year olds, I don’t see rice. I wanted to see that play out on screen. I
Hollis:
Know. Yeah. Again, it had so much potential.
sar:
So much potential, Hollis.
Jeff:
Yeah, Yeah.
Hollis:
Yeah.
Jeff:
So I think this actually brings us, I’m sorry, but we should probably talk about the fact that this movie does fall into a couple interesting tropes, and I think the one really interesting trope that we should talk about is the trope of making a biopic about a disabled person that accidentally is about the non-disabled person. I would argue this movie is about the dad, it’s not about Patrick.
Hollis:
Yeah, I would completely agree with you with that. I almost said without hypnosis.
Jeff:
Yes. Yeah. The medium is the message as we all know. Yeah. The other one that I wanted to talk a little bit about is what I call the pain parade. This is the desire, the urgent need to talk constantly about surgeries, injuries, rehab, struggle. We actually don’t know a lot about Patrick. I know lots of other surgeries, but I don’t know really anything else about him other than he likes music and he’s had a rough go with his body.
sar:
We don’t even really see the struggle. The struggle of this film was him trying to make band and for whatever reason, there’s a whole five minute scene dedicated to the head of this marching band saying, well, no, you can’t join because half of the premise here is March this Ken does march. He really could not let that go.
Hollis:
Yeah.
sar:
There’s a cool ableism point to be made there about how do we envision accommodations. But I think it was actually a much simpler point about this is one of the biggest hardships in this guy’s life with some fairly well off parents, and the only real hardship we’re getting in the context of the screenplay is him crawling to the kitchen inexplicably, still looking for an explanation on that. They had a ramp,
Jeff:
I will say that is actually accurate to their world. So this ramp crawling scene is also a part of the Extreme Makeover episode. Wild. This is one of the issues. There is a ramp to get into their kitchen that he is unable to push himself up. It’s too steep for him to push up. So he has to get out of his chair, crawl up, and reel it in.
sar:
Gotcha.
Jeff:
I will say that I do not understand
Hollis:
Use a power chair?
Jeff:
They did not make the ramp longer to make the slope less. There was room, you can see in both the film there was tons of room makeover. There is room for them to extend that rant if that was the real problem.
sar:
And they did two different of it. So they really wanted to hone in on this trouble getting to the kitchen thing. And I don’t know if they were just at a complete loss for other troubles to give this kid, but it really felt truly bizarre.
Jeff:
My theory is this is the She makeover viral effect, but it was lose bit afterwards and that scene I did was particularly evocative to audiences of that show.
sar:
That’s what got Ty Pennington on the phone. He was like, that’s it.
Jeff:
He’s like, not, can’t even get into the kitchen. Invite America. You can get into the kitchen when you can tell your mom know what to make to you. So that might be it, but it’s wild. This movie spends a ton of time about how hard it is, how painful it is, but as our reviewer earlier explains, there really isn’t a whole lot of real deep engagement with there has to be a better way. What if there was funding?
sar:
Well, they don’t even show it, which I think might’ve also increased the narrative intrigue had they shown him in pain or him recovering after a surgery or not to make it more pain parade, but all of the dialogue kind of felt like an after effects add in where they’ll change the color of your eyes after the fact. They just had these script throw ins like, oh, he had seven surgeries this year and he’s just sitting there playing the trumpet and I’m like, I don’t think he had seven surgeries this year. What the fuck?
Hollis:
There’s no way he’s playing trumpet after seven fucking surgeries.
Jeff:
Yeah. So he has a spinal cord surgery for scoliosis. I also had that surgery. Hollis also had that surgery.
sar:
Holy hell.
Jeff:
After the surgery, were you sitting up in a bed talking to people?
Hollis:
Fuck no.
sar:
Were you playing the trumpet?
Hollis:
I was half conscious.
Jeff:
Yeah. I was not conscious for three days after the surgery.
sar:
Yeah, yeah. So you’re telling me the stage show is untrue.
Jeff:
They lied to you, Sarah.
sar:
Unbelievable.
Hollis:
I honestly, I barely remember coming out of that surgery.
Jeff:
No, not at all.
Hollis:
Yeah,
sar:
You didn’t go to AP bio the next day.
Hollis:
Oh yeah. And I remember basically I remember that surgery is the pain when they were removing 18 staples.
Jeff:
Yep. Yeah. I was about six months in recovery where I was basically on my back. I was on the couch taking a lot of codeine and falling in love with Rosie O’Donnell.
sar:
Nice.
Jeff:
And then the codeine went away and I suddenly didn’t like Rosie O’Donnell. So funny how that works. Surely there’s no connection.
sar:
No.
Jeff:
The other one, obviously this is what we probably don’t need to talk about, but with loss comes a special gift in this case because he doesn’t have eyes. He has music and apparently anti-racism.
sar:
It kind of just felt like, and I don’t even know if I can blame the film for this because I’m sure this church or organization wasn’t made of money, but it felt like the no-frills version of every trope we had the inspiration porn, we had the Pan Olympics, we had him having unconscionable troubles, we had his entire life story, all the hits, but it was all done badly and totally unmoving. And even when I’m saying it’s hard to talk about, I wanted to see more of the pain while still saying, I don’t want to see only pain because I’m just not buying the version you’re giving me. The version you’re giving me is so no frills as for me to not believe the entire telethon you needed to commit to one or two of these tropes instead of doing 10 or 12 of ’em in the explain like I’m five budget version.
Jeff:
Yeah, absolutely.
sar:
Does that make sense?
Jeff:
No, absolutely. Absolutely.
sar:
It just ended up, I felt like I wasn’t understanding the plot and then I’m looking it up and I’m like, no, that was the plot. That’s what they were trying to get across. I just don’t get it.
Jeff:
Now, listeners of the show will know that we have a fully empirical, completely scientific and rigorous method in which we rate all of our films titled The Invalid Culture Scale, which we will put this movie to the test to determine where it falls on our scale, whether or not it maybe is actually art or if it will win the coveted Jerry Lewis seal of approval. So on a scale of one to five, with five being the least accurate, how accurate does this film portray disability?
Hollis:
I want to say four. Four and a half. Four and a half.
sar:
Four and a half.
Hollis:
Because yes, he does have a lot of surgeries as a kid with his fairly relatable because he goes for scoliosis, he brace his leg and a number other surgeries for his disorder and he has, the one thing that I found even more relatable was the fact that he had an EA sitting beside him in every class in high school.
Jeff:
That doesn’t happen.
sar:
Maybe it does in Louisville. Maybe they have unprecedented funding.
Hollis:
It happened for me. I don’t know about you.
Jeff:
Definitely not for me. I was allowed one third of an attendant.
Hollis:
Really?
Jeff:
They chopped that guy up. Yes.
Hollis:
Yes. Oh, maybe it’s a London rule.
Jeff:
I was in London, I was in a different town, but I had one third of an attendant, damnit Hollis.
sar:
So we are 1-to-1 again. It’s interesting to me that you guys have a lot of the same disablement as what’s being depicted here and oftentimes in the context of this episode, very opposite experiences of it, which is fun for me as a third party observer because now I believe nothing. Yeah,
Jeff:
Yea it’s all made up basically “Disability is, whose line is line is it anyway? It’s all random. It’s all made up.
sar:
Yeah. We’re all just atoms floating in the universe and how much help you receive is just completely random,
Jeff:
Totally arbitrary. Depends on how good you are at piano.
sar:
So I’m not as helpful for this film because Jeff keeps picking physical disability films and I’m a mental disability expert, so color me useless, but I’m going to go with three.
Hollis:
Jeff was being selfish in his choices.
sar:
Yeah, Jeff is being real selfish with the film selection right now.
Jeff:
So, Two points. There’re just all disabled physically, always one heavy content in that side and yeah, that’s why. And they’re mostly men. That’s the other fun thing. It’s so cool.
sar:
They’re mostly men. Perfect. Alright. I went with three and I went with three because of the conversation we were having toward the end about, I felt like they were doing a lot of typical disability on film devices, but in not committing to any of them. And I wonder how much of this is because or if they consulted with the family on the screenplay and I think that would change my answer if they had writing credit on the screenplay, but if they didn’t, the depiction is so flimsy in all of the trope making that none of them get pulled off. If they made kind of a builder basic inspiration porn film like the Hill, I would’ve actually given it a lower score, lower being better because it at least committed to the inspiration for an angle. This film didn’t even do that.
Jeff:
I’m pretty much right in the middle. I gave it a four. I was going to say it might be accurate to Patrick Henry’s life. I actually don’t think that that’s necessarily the case, but I also think that it’s not super accurate in terms of what life with disability is like. There’s all the highlights. They have all the buzzwords, the things that you have probably heard if you talk to a disabled person for a few minutes around concerns around access, concerns around bills, concerns around surgeries. They’ve got all the elements there, but it’s all just so glossed, just completely glossed over. And there’s really no attempt to engage critically with what this means, with what it means that his family isn’t able to afford healthcare, what it means that he’s working his way through element or through high school and then eventually goes on into university. I think there’s the major focus on these high level points in a biography as opposed to the real things that make a human. I’m going to give it a four. On a scale of one to five, with five being the hardest, how hard was it for you to get through this film?
Hollis:
I’m going to say four because I did not watch it on, I watched it on YouTube premium so I didn’t have two miracles.
sar:
Oh hell yeah.
Hollis:
So that’s why it was shorter, so it was easier to get through. That’s why I gave it the four out of five and not vital.
sar:
You saw the YouTube cut?
Hollis:
Yeah.
sar:
Maybe we should have watched that.
Jeff:
We boned that one. Sorry folks.
sar:
I did find this harder to get through than a lot of the more entertaining I see films, so I’m going to agree with Hollis on four. I think part of the value of it, if you go to watch it, which you shouldn’t, is it really is kind of like a K-pop drama slice of life where you really do get the kind of me entering day-to-day style. And if that’s genuinely your thing, I think you might actually enjoy this film, but it’s not my thing at all. I’m not big on slice of life, so I found it quite difficult combined with the obvious screenplay problems.
Jeff:
So I’m the outlier on this one. I gave it a 2.5. This is by no means the worst that I’ve ever had to sit through. It wasn’t terrible filmmaking. I mean it wasn’t great filmmaking, but by the context of this podcast, this was not the worst thing I’ve had to sit through. I remember it ending and not feeling like I had ruined my life. Absolutely. And that to me feels like I wasn’t exhausted afterwards. And this might be tip of my hand a little bit, but also my answer to the next question also kind of explains why I gave this a 2.5. So the next question is on a scale of one to five, with five being the maximum, how often did you laugh at things that were not supposed to be funny?
Hollis:
I’d say three and a half.
sar:
Okay.
Hollis:
I found the idea. Think the thing that I laugh most actually out loud about was how it seemed like a good idea for him to quit his job and become a baggage handler that would’ve paid him maybe a fifth of the salary that he was already earning and then maybe a 10th of the salary that he could have taken.
sar:
I’m going to go high. I’m going to give it a four because I was laughing throughout this movie and some of it might’ve been the margaritas, but at least some of it was outright ridiculous scene composition. You had the theater with him playing and his dad telling him just picture the audience naked or with just their underwear on and he turns around like, dad, I’ve had no eyes my whole life type of thing. Or when the parents come home and there’s, I kid you not, there’s a two or three minute scene that Jeff touched on where the parents are arguing over whether the baby was or was not born with eyes. And Jeff and I were joking. I feel like as a nurse that would be fairly easy to identify on a scale of difficult disorders, checking the eyelid and seeing if there’s anything in it. They’re going to be pretty sure. And there’s just ridiculous moments like that throughout the film. So I was laughing quite a bit, but I don’t think the screenplay was trying to make that funny. I think they were trying to make increasingly dramatic moments and the tonal shift was such that anything that might otherwise have translated as kind of a dramatic lilt instead translated as absurdity.
Jeff:
Yep. I was right there with you. I went higher. I gave it a five. This was objectively a really funny that I don’t think it was intended to be as funny as it was. I laughed at all the things you were mentioning, the Are you sure he doesn’t have eyes? Hilarious. I have to play basketball all the time. Hilarious. I have to sell my car. Hilarious grandpa trying to kill his grandchild. Hilarious. It was all hilarious. I thought it was really, really funny. It was not intended to be. I’m a terrible person and I’m okay with that. And that is why I found it a very watchable film because it was really funny when you really think about it. Yeah. Okay.
sar:
I think it’s not, when you think about it, it’s when you totally release your mind. You choose to think nothing and just let the film wash over you.
Jeff:
Just let it smash against you.
sar:
Like the tide coming in at the end of the day.
Jeff:
Yeah. Rolling up the ramp just to get a glass of water. Okay, scale of one to five, our last question, my favorite one with five being the most, how many steps back has this film put disabled people?
Hollis:
Five being the highest?
sar:
Yes.
Hollis:
A million.
sar:
A million.
Jeff:
So that’s a five. We’re go with a five.
Hollis:
Yeah. We’re going with five. It does not picture the life of a disabled person accurately at all. And it focuses on the woe is me Life of the father way too much.
sar:
When I put it in the context of the other films we’ve watched this year, I think stuff like I can never say it, quid pro quo actually does far more dangerous things for disablement and popular culture than something like this film, which was just kind of a poorly edited, attempted inspiration porn. I think if you’re doing poorly edited, attempted inspiration porn, there is enough of that entrenched in North American society that people pretty much know what to make of it at face value. This isn’t a film that I would give to somebody with a whole bunch of notes about what movements that it’s drawing on unlike some of the other films in Jeff’s because it’s just so bafflingly simplistic and it doesn’t try to achieve anything other than its telethon narrative value. And if that’s all they were going for sure, I respect that. If what you really wanted to do was tell an inspirational quasi story to raise a bunch more money, that’s great.
But I don’t think that’s as damaging to disability culture than films that actively promote disinformation or really harmful opinions about culture. Not that inspiration porn isn’t a harmful opinion, but I’m kind of counting on when I meet a stranger. But that’s an opinion that we’re working on changing. Whereas the Republican fantasy epic was rapidly more dangerous than a film this, you’d have to host a showing after that, showing to discuss the problems with that showing. And I don’t feel that you’d have to do that with this film. You’d just get up on stage and be like, well, that sure was an attempt, right? And everybody would kind of already know what you’re saying. Does that make sense?
Jeff:
Yeah, I think so. Yeah. I really struggled with this. I’ve changed my score on this multiple times since I saw it. I have oscillated between two and five for days, months even. And I think I’m going to go with four because at the end of the day what I always come back to on this film is that this is a story about a real person who still lives and exists and literally lives where the production company is based. They theoretically have all the access they could ever dream of this person. And they told possibly the most boring part of this kid’s life that they told the story about him surviving childhood, playing in his high school marching band, playing in the university marching band when this dude has been on TV multiple times. He’s been on Moy Povich, he’s been on Oprah, he’s been around the world performing. He’s played on major stages. I’m thinking about a movie like Walk the Line, the bio-pic about Johnny Cash.
Hollis:
And eah
Jeff:
I’m like, can you imagine if Walk the Line was just about Johnny Cash’s childhood to university age? And that’s not to say that Patrick Henry Hughes is like what Johnny Cash level musical performer, but I think it does say that they missed so much interesting stuff about his life and they missed it because it didn’t fit the inspiration poor narrative in a clean and easy way, right?
sar:
Yep.
Jeff:
How could he be a sad disabled person if he’s also performing on Oprah? It doesn’t line up. Right. Sure. And for that reason, I think that even though it’s not intentional, it never is or rarely is I did this film, am punishing it, penalize it because there was a real opportunity here to tell a cool story about a genuinely interesting person. And I don’t think we got that story. I think we were robbed of that story. And instead the record will hold, at least for those who watched the film that Patrick Henry hug is a diamond dozen inspiration porn kid and I don’t think that’s exactly who he is. And for that I’m going to give it a four.
sar:
I think that’s a pretty nuanced review. I like that review.
Hollis:
Yeah. I would say it was a very accurate review
Jeff:
As we get angry on behalf of Patrick Henry here at Hughes. So if he doesn’t come and murder me when he does what I do and stalks me on the internet and finds where I live, so the scores have been tabulated drum roll please, with never have a term roll with shocking 45.5 Im potential comes in with our second highest category. A crime may have been committed, which feels about right I would say.
sar:
That’s accurate. I don’t think it’s the, I was debating whether this would be Jerry Lewis level and I didn’t feel it deserved Jerry Lewis level. It’s not one of the worst ones we saw this year, but it’s extremely problematic if you’re doing a disability or rendering of it.
Hollis:
Well, given the fact that you guys are saying that this is not the worst one that you have watched, I’m very happy that I’m not hosting a podcast.
sar:
You would not believe the bullshit that Jeff has made me watch. You would truly not believe it.
Jeff:
Oh, I’m such a bad person.
sar:
Oh no. This was one of the better ones. Hollis. Jeff clearly likes you as a friend. He gave you one of the better films.
Jeff:
Yeah. You didn’t get adequately punished, which I think means that you need to come back for a future episode.
sar:
Sounds like Hollis is coming up again!
Hollis:
I think I deserve a better punishment apart from putting up conversation with Jeff.
Jeff:
Well, we’ll see how your podcast that I’m going to join goes and we’ll see what level of torture you get after that.
Hollis:
There you go.
Jeff:
Yeah. Well thank you so much Hol, for joining us. It’s been a pleasure.
sar:
Thank you.
Hollis:
I am so happy that this, when you pair with me about making this show, I was super excited and it seems so far away and now it’s here and now it’s done. You did it. You survived.
sar:
We had so much fun with you.
Hollis:
It was a blast. Yeah, it was lovely to meet you as well. And I know at the beginning of the show you guys are saying how it’s September again and it is September and you guys are excited to go back. And I always now feel weird for me in Septembers because I’m not joined back and I have not joined back since before the pandemic. I drove by my old elementary school the other day and seeing the kids coming out of there, it’s like, oh my God, that was yesterday. Right?
Jeff:
Yeah. It’s such a weird loss. I mean, you think about Augusts when you were young and for myself, I always dreaded August because it meant that school was coming and I didn’t want to go back. And now as an adult, I mean I still go back to school. I’m a professor, I forgot to leave. But it’s such a different emotion. You missed the excitement and you missed the coming back together. And now in work lives, you don’t get that. Which is why I believe that capitalism should just shut off for two months in the summer. We should all just go on vacation, hang out, play in the forest together and spit in the woods. The woods, and then go back to work in September,
Hollis:
Be in a campfire singing Dear Abby. Yeah.
Jeff:
Yeah exactly. So King of Capitalism, I think that might be Elon Musk or Bezos maybe if you’re listening to this, give the people back summer holidays
sar:
End World Hunger. Just do it for fun. Honestly, if I had that much money, I’d just do it for funsies
Hollis:
And stop capitalism for two months and turned into, you know, part of the conversation was making me remember this, Jeff, do you remember when we used to go to the Easter Seals Camps? The winner is: Friendship. I hated that. Absolutely hated that.
Jeff:
Yeah. Absolutely.
sar:
That could have very easily been a scene in this film. If we were wondering about the tone of this film, the tone is Easter Seals Foundation Marathon.
Jeff:
Yeah, pretty much. Pretty much. Pretty much. So that wraps up another edition. It’s really the edition, I would say, of invalid culture, but we are not done yet, folks. We have two more films and then a very special Christmas episode. So tune in with us next month in October where things are going to get spooky. And by that I mean terrifying and not in the way the director intended. Have a good one. Enjoy Back to School.
Jeff:
And thus concludes another episode of Invalid Culture. Thank you for listening. I hope you enjoyed it or not. Either way, please take a second. If you haven’t to subscribe to our podcast on whatever platform you’re using, tell a friend, and better yet, do you want to be a victim on the podcast? Go on to our website, invalid culture.com, submit your name. We would love to terrorize you with a bad movie. Have a bad movie of your own that you think that we should watch. Again, jump on our website, invalid culture.com, submit it, and we would love to watch the Trash with Strangers on the internet. Everyone is wrong, I just haven’t told them yet.

[Outro theme song, “Arguing with Strangers on the Internet” by Mvll Crimes plays]

Cover of the film "My Christmas Guide" featuring characters Trevor, Payton and guidedog Max.

What if seeing puns became a movie?

Anyone can see it is Christmas-time, but will a blind man spot the benefits of using a guide dog? Do you need eyes to be a man and a professor? In our 2023 Christmas special, Jeff and sar peep the recently released Hallmark Channel made-for-television film My Christmas Guide. Join us in gazing into the Christmas vomit abyss that is this romantic (?) holiday thriller woke-a-thon.

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Grading the Film

As always, this film is reviewed with scores recorded in four main categories, with 1 being the best and 5 being the worst. Like the game of golf, the lower the score the better.

How accurate is the representation?

Jeff – 2 / 5

sar – 1 / 5

Total – 3 / 10

How difficult was it to watch the movie?

sar – 4 / 5

Jeff – 5 / 5

Total – 9 / 10

How often were things unintentionally funny?

sar – 2.5 / 5

Jeff – 3 / 5

Total – 5.5 / 10

How far back has it put disabled people?

Jeff – 2.5 / 5

sar – 4 / 5

Total – 6.5 / 10

The Verdict

Regrets, I have a few…

Podcast Transcript

Jeff:

Welcome to Invalid Culture, a podcast dedicated to excavating the strangest and most baffling representations of disability in popular culture. Unlike other podcasts that review films you’ve probably heard of, invalid Culture is all about the abyss of pop culture, adjacent media that just never quite broke through because well, they’re just awful. Now let’s dig in to the worst films you’ll wish you never knew existed.

Mvll Crimes [musical interlude]:

I’m arguing with strangers on the internet // not going out today because I’m feeling too upset // I’m arguing with strangers on the and I’m winning…and I’m winning!!

Jeff:

Welcome to a special bonus edition of Invalid Culture. As always, I am your host Jeff and I am joined today by past podcast and new co victim. Sarah, welcome.

sarah:

Hello. Thanks for having me.

Jeff:

Are you excited to be here again?

sarah:

Obviously I haven’t been here since the last Christmas special.

Jeff:

Yeah, we’ve been on a bit of a hiatus, but we thought it’s Christmas time, it’s time for family, and so it was time to bring you back for another moment of torture

sarah:

Time for more terrible Hallmark films vaguely about disability.

Jeff:

Absolutely. That’s the time of the year. It’s the reason for the season, I believe. So this year to ring in the festive season, we were given a present by the Hallmark Channel. Once again, a Hallmark has decided to dip their giant toes and walking sticks into the world of disability and media or film. This time with the 2023 November release of My Christmas Guide. Now from the Box, My Christmas Guide is allegedly a movie about “a college professor who connects with a guide dog trainer after losing his eye sight and a adopting a seeing eye dog.” That’s essentially the high level, but we’re going to dig a lot deeper into this movie. Before we do though, as I said, this is a Hallmark movie, made for TV, is released in November. It was written by Keith Hemstreet. Now he has a very interesting history. He has written a ton of movies in the last year that all appear to be romantic TV shows, things like a Royal Christmas Crush also came out this year and Love in Glacier National also cave out this year, so Keith Hemstreet just banging out the romantic TV movies. It was also directed by Max Mcguire. Max splits their time between Christmas movies, Christmas by Design, Record Breaking Christmas, The Most Colorful Time of Year and murder movies. Other movies he’s done: Abducted on Prom Night, The Good Wife’s Guide to Murder, the Ice Road Killer, et cetera.

sarah:

I want him to combine those two genres. I feel like he would be the guy to do it. I want the Ice Road Christmas killer.

Jeff:

Yeah, I love it. I love it. I thought that was phenomenal. What a career path. Great. Now, unlike most films that we do in this podcast, this film actually features an actually disabled actor playing their own character. Ben Mehl is playing the main character Trevor. Ben is disabled, is blind, and is best known probably for his role as a librarian in Netflix’s show You and he’s noted in an interview that quote, my role on you was my first role where I haven’t had to pretend to be able to see more than I actually can. He went on to talk about this movie in particular, stating that to be able to represent a character who has vision loss while personally having similar experiences attracted me to the role. He says that he hopes that he’s able to raise people’s understanding and awareness of the different experiences of disabled people and wants audiences to always be reminded to be aware of disability. So that’s a little bit about who we have in our main character. Trevor, does that help you understand the movie better at all, Sarah?

sarah:

No, but I really wish that he went for the seeing pun in that based on the script.

Jeff:

Yeah, not to always be aware, but to always see to

sarah:

See disability wherever we go.

Jeff:

Absolutely. Our romantic lead, a female lead is played by Amber Marshall, who is our guide dog trainer. She is from London’s own, I should have said London’s own Amber Marshall from London, Ontario, best known probably for her role as Amy in CBC’s Heartland. So we’ve got some real Canadian media legends

sarah:

Here. That’s something I’ve actually heard of. That’s pretty cool.

Jeff:

And then there’s a third character not in the Love triangle, but critical to the film, which is Trevor’s daughter.

sarah:

Oh, I thought you were going to say Chainsaw.

Jeff:

No. Chainsaw is the most important character to me.

sarah:

He was also surprisingly important to the Love Triangle, though. Don’t sleep on chainsaw.

Jeff:

Don’t sleep on chainsaw, but Chainsaw, unlike Ava Weiss who plays Annie, Chainsaw was not in the film Moonfall, which Ava Weiss was. She is in the terrible possibly amazing film Moonfall.

 

So just off the absolute top, Sarah, just really quickly, how did you feel about this movie?

sarah:

If you excuse all of the really poorly done references to the fact that they’re trying to do an inclusivity film, but through the lens of extreme exclusivity, they were obsessed in every scene with pointing out that the protagonist was blind. He is different guys. By the way, this is an inclusivity film. I was actually much more fascinated by the love triangle angle because I am convinced and we can argue about this, that the true victim of this film was Chad, the heavily gaslit boyfriend. I really feel like he lost a lot in this, and you’re supposed to just go with it because he is a nothing character and I disagree. I’m coming out in defensive Chad here. What did you think,

Jeff:

Jim? Chad? Yeah, I would say honestly, and I apologize to all the Hallmark fans out there, this was probably one of the most boring films I’ve watched for this podcast.

sarah:

It was hard. That was a tough one.

Jeff:

It was so slow and nothing happens. I think it’s the only redeeming quality, thank God. I don’t know if this is cinematographer decision or the director’s decision, but the number of Slowmo glamor shots of the Guide back of

sarah:

Max, yes, was the

Jeff:

Only thing that helped me get through this film.

sarah:

We were counting them at one point.

Jeff:

There were many. That was great. That was great. I have huge, huge love for that, huge love for chainsaw, and while those are our opinions and our sort of overarching views of the film, we are not the only ones who have opinions views about this film. There are of course critics that have written about this film that have analyzed it, have spoken about it, and let’s hear a little bit from them. And so our first critic that I wanted to talk about is Brett White. Now, Brett White wrote a very long thing about this film for Decider. It’s basically a blog that lets you help to understand if you want to watch a movie or not, which I think is actually a pretty clever, I pretty clever conceit. This is what Brett White had to say about his experience with the film. There’s a lot of patient character work that you only realize was character work, right? As the script is making big emotional moves, he goes on to say, interestingly, Trevor feels unlike any hallmark hunk we’ve ever had, primarily because he has a brainy profession and doesn’t exactly brood smolder or flirt with our leading lady. Trevor’s a different kind of leading man, and Ben is fantastic in the part

sarah:

I’m desperately trying not to ask for his background, but I’m thinking definitely Laurier and definitely film studies, and I can say that because I did Laureate film studies. I do like, what did I call her? I called her b-list Santa Stark, the protagonist love interest. She was probably the closest thing to actual talent in the film, but the rest, I don’t know, agree to disagree.

Jeff:

I particularly like this quote because it seems almost like Brett White is kind of calling Ben not attractive, is sort of like he’s

sarah:

Not my type.

Jeff:

He’s smart. He doesn’t brood or smolder or flirt.

sarah:

I needed a positive adjective and the one I went with was smart.

Jeff:

He’s a brainy professional,

sarah:

But even, okay, can we do quick rants?

Jeff:

Yeah,

sarah:

Even the scenes where they let him, okay, so context, they let him be some kind of amalgamation between sessional professor and full professor depending on what room he was standing in. That’s another thing. But if you take for granted that he is a legitimate English professor, every single time he does a scene where he’s supposed to be very bookish and knowledgeable about classical texts, he blows it. It sounds like he just read it the other day and he’s nervously commentating on it, and everyone around him immediately dismisses anything he says about literature to be like, no, your only legitimate character trait is that you’re blind. We don’t care about this book thing.

Jeff:

Yeah, I fully agree. I feel like the one thing I didn’t believe the most is that this man was a professor.

sarah:

Oh yeah. At all. He did no research for that role.

Jeff:

He had the satchel, he had the satchel bag…

sarah:

He did have the satchel, he did the, what’s it called, mock neck turtleneck. He did that a couple times and he attempted to speak in professional situations about literature, which I guess on its face I agree with, but I’ve heard sessionals do a better job than this. Maybe full professor.

Jeff:

Yeah, it sounded like chat GPT writing a professor character. Actually, I think that would probably be better, but yeah, so Brett White, he is a fan. He liked it. It’s a different kind of leading man. He’s not a hunk, he’s not brooding, he’s not smoldering. He doesn’t flirt, but he is fantastic. This was not the opinion however of CGVSLewis on IMDV who gave this a five out of 10 title in their user response quote, A guide dog finds a home for Christmas and a woman boots or obnoxious boyfriend. This is the title of the review.

sarah:

I already disagree, but continue. Yeah.

Jeff:

Okay, so I don’t know what CGVSLewis sounds like, but I assume it sounds a little bit like this: Also, as I keep mentioning, I like my entertainment as entertainment and not social justice causes. I work all day at a hospital as I have for 30 years, and I don’t want to come home turning on my entertainment to be the lecture. Granted, this was a soft lecture, but it still took several opportunities to hit us over the head with the challenges faced by those who are mobility impaired. Guess what? I see it every day at work. A big part of our job is education, and I would like to just be entertained when I come home tired and with sore feet. I did really appreciate the classic literature quotes. That was my favorite part.

sarah:

Where was the classic literature quote? Oh, in his lecture where he started reciting Chaucer from memory or something?

Jeff:

No, you were giving them way too much credit. He had a quote from To Kill a Mockingbird of one kine. He had a quote from Mark Twain and he had a quote from Ellison, which is probably the most not high school English class book, Invisible Man, that they referred to.

sarah:

Oh I’m hoping he was quoting American Psycho. That would’ve been great.

Jeff:

No,

sarah:

That would’ve been a nice Easter egg.

Jeff:

I love the fact that somebody went on a anti woke rant about a Hallmark movie, about a guide dog,

sarah:

The absolute wokeness of mobility impairment.

Jeff:

I also love that part of their job is education, but they don’t know that this would not be defined as a mobility impairment.

sarah:

Yeah, yeah. It checks out actually.

Jeff:

Okay, I’m sorry. I think we need to talk about this film. So let’s take a little wander through the story of my Christmas guide as best as I understand it.

So our movie begins with the introduction of Trevor, a Dickens-obsessed professor of “Classic Literature” in <insert random American town that is totally definitely not St. John’s NFLD>. Losing his vision and wife, no relation, several years ago has left him disoriented. After damaging his face walking into a non-OSHA compliant construction site, there are questions about if Trevor can continue working because there is apparently no way to make a 6-month long sidewalk construction project safe for blind people. One day, while picking up his dog-obsessed daughter from school, local guide dog trainer Payton is out for a stroll and observes Trevor aggressively serving Blind Man™. After staring silently at Trevor from across the street for an entire scene, Payton decides to intrude on this stranger’s life, demanding the school secretary give her dog guide service literature in a clear violation of school stranger danger rules. After some debate about whether or not a dog would make Trevor’s life easier or harder, he eventually relents and begins training to acquire extremely photogenic guide dog, Max. This training largely consists of being guided around town with Payton cosplaying as a harnessed dog and giggling maniacally. What are your thoughts on the beginning of the film, Sarah?

sarah:

That’s almost hard to characterize. I think for the first, at least half of its runtime, I was kind of confused as to what the movie was actually about because I think I was looking for, because when we watched Christmas Evil last year, there’s a fairly robust plot line. There’s this trauma circuit between the brothers and then there’s this B Ark where the brother tries to redeem himself by this Christmas party. There is virtually no blot in this film in comparison to last year’s film. So I kept waiting for the moment of intrigue, but I think upon reflection, the moment of intrigue was actually Peyton forcing herself into Trevor’s world via this kind of weird play at his daughter’s school to get him to adopt a dog because she’s the one who trains the dogs. But then I don’t even know why she knew what school to go to. It stands up until you start thinking about it and then you’re like, wait, that doesn’t make any sense whatsoever.

Jeff:

Yeah, I think they were leaving the school. I think that’s how she knew that was the school that

sarah:

The daughter went to, and she just shows up with disability information. By the way, in case you’ve only been blind since yesterday, I actually train seeing eye dogs and you can have one. Yeah, I didn’t like it. I didn’t like the setup.

Jeff:

Would you say that Peyton is a crafty capitalist or is she a conniving capitalist?

sarah:

Peyton is garbage, so a capitalist in general from the Marxist,

Peyton definitely coming out in favor of getting more clients for her dog training school, but she’s also spending most of the movie gaslighting the shit out of her boyfriend to think that he’s a terrible boyfriend so that she can break up with him with zero regrets or remorse in order to be with this blind guy that she just met, who I guess she thinks is hot or has a charismatic personality or both of which he actually exhibits neither. So I’m not sure what she’s seeing, but she’s definitely seeing more than what she sees in Chad, and she spends so much of this film and you were with me and I was so mad just telling this guy over and over like, you are no good. I don’t like what you’re doing to me. While he’s trying to be the kind of prototypical supportive boyfriend, they even named him Chad. They did him dirty, but they didn’t even make his villain arc good.

Jeff:

So let’s talk about that. As our story continues to unfold, we discover that Peyton is in a strained relationship with her golf obsessed boyfriend, literally named Chad, who is leaving her for Christmas to go golfing in Florida with his friends and chainsaw. Yes, these are their names. I should clarify here. Chad does not look like the kind of person who would have friends named Thurp and Chainsaw. Chad very much looks like the type of person whose friends would be named like Huston and Beauregard perhaps

sarah:

And Derek.

Jeff:

Yeah, absolutely not. And trades up. No. So as Peyton and Trevor start to work together, sparks begin to fly that even a blind man could see that maybe there is something here. Trevor’s daughter, Annie is now starting to get bullied at school because her dad is blind, but through the miracle potential of Peyton becoming her new mommy, she almost completely ignores a bully. Instead of wandering down the school shooter pathway, Peyton and Trevor continue to get closer with Trevor showing Peyton around the only campus in America where Christmas is clearly winning the war on Christmas. Peyton eventually decides to do a totally normal professional relationship thing and introduces Trevor to her father at a Christmas charity event because Chad has bailed on this commitment in order to golf at the number one golf course in Florida.

sarah:

So one, I think we decided partway through the film that although it seems to be introduced from Peyton’s perspective that Peyton and Chad are in a fairly serious relationship, it starts to kind of erode by the two thirds mark, and it seems to me at least that they’re in a way more casual arrangement than Peyton seems to think from the interactions they’re having. But even then he’s doing stuff like calling her from Florida to check in and ask for permission to stay longer with his friends and stuff, which to me seems like solid boyfriend behavior and she gets off the phone rolling her eyes. I can’t believe he would ask for more time. I can’t believe he’s not coming home to me right away from this trip that has clearly been prearranged for months. I don’t know. I’m back on this.

Jeff:

Sure. I mean, I will say there was the swap out where he implied that he had this big surprise for her and then he brings her outside and the surprise is that he has bought himself golf clubs.

sarah:

Surprise baby. I’m leveling up my golf game.

Jeff:

So I, I think this is the tension that they’re trying to draw out and this is that he keeps on insinuating that something’s coming to her, but it never is. It’s never coming. But I think you’re right in that there does appear to be this clear disconnect between where Chad thinks the relationship is and where Peyton thinks it is, because Peyton thinks it’s like we’re married or we’re about to get married, and Chad is sort of like, I might see you next week maybe

sarah:

Pretty much. Peyton also seems to not respond at all to emotional dialogue cues, which he gives a ton of, and at least among my female friends, we talk a lot about how that’s maybe missing in some relationships. Chad’s got it in spades, even if they’re just casual. He’s got the full social worker routine about how validated does this make you feel, or I’d like to remind you that you’re special to me kind of thing. I don’t think a lot of people have that, and she’s just sitting in the car like, Ugh, insufferable. And I’m like, really? Is it insufferable though?

Jeff:

Meanwhile, we have some really scintillating, some scintillated romance sparking between Peyton and Trevor. I will give this movie credit. They did not do the typical trope of the blind man touching the woman’s face and saying, you are beautiful.

sarah:

I’ve felt sure I was waiting for that.

Jeff:

They did not do that. What they did do instead was have Trevor essentially say, you smell real pretty. There is a scene in which he essentially says, well, I can’t see you, but you smell pretty and then asks if he smells pretty.

sarah:

He actually kind of demands that he complimented.

Jeff:

And I’d like to know how many of your relationships Sarah have started with an exchange of smell description?

sarah:

You know what? I think many of my past relationships have actually started on the seeing description how drop dead gorgeous I am. That is a joke. So maybe the joke is because he can’t see, hey, he’s got to start with smell, but he has taken that way too seriously. It gets a bit weird.

Jeff:

And I also wonder, I mean that the implication is that she has a lovely perfume or something that she’s wearing. I would’ve given this way more credit if she had been eating smart food before they met and she smelled like smart food. That is an appealing smell. I would That’s true. If you smell I smelled like smart food, I might ask to be out on a date. That’s true.

sarah:

If you follow it up with offering that smart food to me, yeah, I’d go places with you no problem if

Jeff:

You’ll share the smart food.

sarah:

Exactly. That’s fair enough. I’m getting right in the car.

Jeff:

That’s actually the surprise maybe that Chad had for the end of the film of family sized bag of smart food, perhaps.

sarah:

Perhaps.

Jeff:

Perhaps. Yeah. So we move forward in our film. We’re finally at the end. Chad has now returned from his golf trip only to discover that his girlfriend is spending literally every moment of her life with this clumsy blind man that she had lured off the street confronting Trevor Chad assures Trevor that Peyton is just not that into him. This is just how she is with all the blind people, so he shouldn’t get the wrong idea. Trevor, of course, has a masculine identity crisis and after being forced to go on leave because the school cannot figure out how to make this construction site accessible despite Max clearly having a guide dog that can navigate it has to go on leave. This is the final straw for Trevor whose big sad boy energy results and giving up on everything going home to sulk and returns the dog that he has been living with for weeks.

This tension is almost immediately resolved when a recording of Chad and Trevor’s conversation is revealed to have been captured on the guide dog business security camp. So Peyton dumps Chad runs to Trevor’s arms and assures him that he is a real man and definitely like a professor, even though he is blind, Trevor’s child now, a young offender after assaulted her bully in the cafeteria with a cupcake, is excited for Christmas and spends the final scene watching her dad make it out with new mommy on Christmas Day, which I think makes this film a prequel to Christmas evil.

sarah:

That was a bit of a wild crossover right at the end.

Jeff:

I did not plan this to be essentially a two part that was beautiful. This is evil, but it worked out perfectly. So there’s two things I want to talk about in this part of the film. So thing number one that I want to address. What are your thoughts about the fact that the university forces Trevor to go on a two-term leave because they cannot make this construction site accessible?

sarah:

I actually thought that this is one of the more realistic moments of this otherwise relentlessly unrealistic film because if you do believe and it flip flops throughout the whole film, but if he is a sessional instructor, he would absolutely lose those terms if somebody else could make their lives easier and replace him. So that is completely believable. And in that instance, if he’s been working term to term as a sessional, he probably would have to return the guide dog. And this is an argument I made to you before because all the upkeep costs associated with the CNIB and dog raising and dog training and paying off the dog as well as just all the costs associated with keeping the dog alive, IE vet bills and food and whatever else, he probably legit can’t afford the dog if he loses his sessional contracts. So that was, I don’t think they meant for it in any way to be that realistic. I think it was just a convenient plot point. But from a labor studies perspective, that was probably the most interesting part of the film.

Jeff:

So I had a similar take, but maybe a little hotter than yours. I think on the one hand, I don’t think he’s a sessional because he does have an enormous office and it has a fireplace. It does. Which his office is actually bigger than his chair who is in a cubicle farm for some reason. He does. So he has an enormous office to himself that has multiple Christmas trees. His boss chair, I would assume maybe a dean is in UNC cubicle somewhere on campus. But on the one hand, it’s obviously completely absurd this notion that the solution to, I mean, there’s been a lot of construction in my life and I’ve never been told, well, you can’t come to work. We don’t know how to make it safe for you. There’s a absurdity to it, but at the same time there is this unintentional kind of nailed it where not even just universities, but I think a lot of organizations, it’s exactly the type of baffling response to inaccessibility that rings actually weirdly true.

sarah:

Right. I was going to challenge you on that. Do you really not believe no one responds

Jeff:

Exactly. No one responds to inaccessible situations in a rational way. The responses tend to be really irrational and bizarre, and so in that way, this is actually maybe a really accurate representation that maybe there is actually a bit of reality to be like, yeah, I actually could see an institution being like, well, I don’t know what to do, so we’ll just pay you to not be here.

sarah:

I thought it was totally realistic. Do you remember what happened a couple years ago at u Guelph where the elevator stopped working? So they emailed all the students in wheelchairs and they were like, yeah, take online classes. We’re not fixing the elevator quickly, don’t come. And all the students were like, that’s completely unreasonable. And they didn’t fix it until they got roasted in the news for it.

Jeff:

Yeah. And so think in that way, it seems absurd, but it actually is maybe not completely out of the world. I will say it does seem like an overreaction given the scale of the problem. All we’ve seen of this construction is it appears they’re replacing sidewalk like pieces. This is not a major construction project by any means, and it feels like just a little bit of fencing is all it would take to make this accessible. But I digress.

sarah:

I would also argue that you are at an institution that has a disability studies department, so perhaps it’s easier for me to believe as being from an institution that actively hates disability, that we would fire those people instead of accommodating for them because we would never get a department like disability studies.

Jeff:

So this is the other question I have because they are really, really vague on their wording on what happens here because the way it’s framed in the film is that he just won’t be teaching for the winter term and the summer term that he’ll be taking two terms off and that decision is made and then five students write a letter to the boss and the boss changes his mind.

sarah:

Yeah, I forgot about that.

Jeff:

And reinstates, and so it doesn’t sound like they were necessarily firing him. It’s like he was going on leave. That’s sort of how they kept framing it, is that he had

sarah:

…and the students have a little solidarity protest about it.

Jeff:

Five of them, yes. I just want to put out only five of his students were willing to write a letter to say, you shouldn’t ban him from campus. Correct. Which seems like a low number, a really low number

sarah:

For an English prof. I don’t know. That also kind of rings accurate to me.

Jeff:

Yeah, I mean when they did do this shots of the students, there did only appear to be eight students in his class. Exactly.

sarah:

So five out of eight is actually great.

Jeff:

I also though don’t imagine many universities would do anything if five students wrote them. I think there’s a lot of universities that wouldn’t respond to a hundred students writing to them necessarily. So yes, there was though obviously that scene also killed me because clearly they were trying to do this whole sort of dead poet society like, oh, captain, my captain kind of thing, where they have the students marching into the office, but they didn’t have the budget to hire a lot of people. And so they’re like, well, we’ll have three people and one of them will hand in multiple letters and that’ll be our big protest maneuver. Then all the viewers will get their uplifting, all the students care about him. I felt really underdeveloped, I would say.

sarah:

I think the whole film felt a little underdeveloped. So in that sense, I’m with you. Fair enough.

Jeff:

Fair enough. So I think what we’re moving toward then is there are some tropes here in this film, some pretty well worn others, maybe not quite, but I thought we should probably talk a little bit about some of these tropes. So the first trope that I wanted to talk about is the requisite scene at the beginning of the film in which Trevor has to explain his disability because you Yeah, you

sarah:

Got to wonder why they went for the medicalization angle for something like blindness, because I think it’s fairly culturally accepted that there are some people who can’t see, and that’s kind of all the explanation you need.

Jeff:

They don’t into a surprising amount of detail.

sarah:

I want to see retina scans. I want to see exactly how much Trevor can’t see.

Jeff:

Give me the exact, why don’t you give us the camera view to show us stats, what he’s not able to see. Yeah. This felt weird and it felt weird in particular because of how much time the movie spends reminding us and showing us. If you cannot see

sarah:

From, he wears these ridiculous glasses just as a visual of, remember Trevor is blind,

Jeff:

Giant blackout, wraparound glasses, awful. Got the walking stick, always rocking the eye dog. Eventually he is surrounded by icons of blindness, and yet there needed to be this moment where he sits down for a very serious conversation to tell Peyton all about his medical history.

sarah:

Yeah, Peyton, somebody he literally just met.

Jeff:

Yes, but she smells good. So she does. She’ll understand

sarah:

Marker of trust.

Jeff:

Yes, yes. I’ve always wondered what would happen in my life if every time I met someone, 10, 15 minutes into the conversation, I started reading them out my medical chart and was like, alright before. And they’re like, this is a Starbucks, just make your order, please. And I’m like, no, you need to know about my formal muscular dystrophy.

sarah:

Pardon? It is

Jeff:

The big one.

sarah:

Exactly. The big one. We’re bringing that back.

Jeff:

Yeah. So I wonder, I feel like people would just tolerate it, but I don’t think it would make friends.

sarah:

No, I think people would uncomfortably wait for you to come to a complete stop and then they’d take a right hand turn.

Jeff:

They would no doubt of the relationship probably pretty quickly.

sarah:

Pretty quickly.

Jeff:

What I would love to see from a Hallmark movie is for them to just apply this as a standard for all characters, whether or not they actually have. So it’s like every character is introduced and then they’re like, you just need to know that I actually have dandruff and have my entire life, and I fought it and I was bullied for it. And it’s a thing that my scalp is so dry, medically dry,

sarah:

I’m the love interest and I have adult onset asthma and I’m going to relay for you the factors which make my life more difficult.

Jeff:

Yeah. I’m not really good at sleeping. My security rhythms are really off. Correct. And so I’m actually often really tired. And it’s a medical condition though.

sarah:

Correct. And the blind guys, are you trying to do an oppression Olympics here? I don’t give a shit.

Jeff:

You can take your C Pap machine and stuff it

sarah:

Chill out, buddy. At least you can see it.

Jeff:

Right. So that actually is a great segue to the second trope that I wanted to talk about. This movie spends a lot of time making puns around the word seeing exhausting and sight constantly. Everyone can see, obviously you can see if only they could see why was this intentional or was this Freudian?

sarah:

It had to have been because sometimes you can almost see the actors looking off screen or looking toward camera one or two. Did you get that?

Jeff:

I really wondered how in it, there were so many of them that at times I feel like this was just how the people wrote the script. This is just how they talk with this sort of idea of site being equivalent to knowledge that you must seem to understand. But then there were other times where they very clearly were leaning into it and trying to make this pun. Yes, but it was overwhelming at times. Yes.

sarah:

The equivocation of blindness and ignorance made this film really uninclusive for me. Not only because of how hard they went on it, but also how hard they went on his visual as his defining character trait is that he is blind. And if you know anything else about him, that’s just a bonus, which feels to me extremely uninclusive for an inclusivity film about, look at Trevor, he’s just like us. He has romance problems like us. He has to walk around traffic and construction like us. It just all rang really hollow when you add in all of those, I don’t know Tropey signals about, but remember he’s blind.

Jeff:

Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. I don’t fully understand why they felt they had to keep reminding us. And it may be because this is a made for TV movie. It’s clearly designed to sit within commercial breaks. So people are kind of coming in and coming out at any moment. And I’ll say, and I don’t know if this is a, I compliment to the film, but you could pretty much start watching this movie at any point in the movie and you would have all the information you need to understand what’s about to happen.

sarah:

It’s like friends, it doesn’t matter where you start.

Jeff:

No. You just jump in wherever and you’re like, okay, well this guy’s clearly blind there. People are mentioning it, obviously they clearly have something going on. Oh, her boyfriend’s name, Chad. So he must be bad. Yeah. Okay. So I think that there may be that element here happening where the form is requiring it, but I think that’s a very generous assumption and I don’t think that that’s probably what’s going on.

sarah:

I think that speaks more to how little plot there was. It was bizarrely simplistic even for a Hallmark film.

Jeff:

Yeah. Well, I think it’s important to remember the writer and the director of this film made by 18 movies this year. So I assume they probably wrote the thing in four days, maybe

sarah:

Four hours,

Jeff:

Maybe.

sarah:

Maybe filmed in four days across Cobourg all the way to St. John’s.

Jeff:

Yeah, yeah,

sarah:

Yeah.

Jeff:

The other trope that I noticed that really stood out to me in this film was the bully. So Trevor’s daughter, Annie is being tormented a boy at school who is constantly doing a pantomime of her father. So he is constantly walking around with his eyes closed, being like, I’m blind, look at me and walking into stuff or touching stuff, and Annie’s getting angrier and angrier. Eventually Annie will decide to smash a cupcake in his face. Annie is then suspended, expelled, punished for suspended, suspended for violence on school campus. Again, I think accurate and brave of Hallmark to stand up on the anti-retaliation things that happened in school. And then eventually she will save the bully because as we learned in Star Wars, there’s always a bigger fish and there’s an even bigger bully who is picking on her bully. But this bully wets the bed, I don’t know how Andy knows this, but this boy who clearly experienced trauma as a child and is now bedwetting as an older child, gets called out embarrassed. He runs off and the blind bully is now your dad’s pretty cool actually, and everything’s resolved. Sarah, why do you think whenever we have a disabled character, there is always a need for a bully to be harassing this person or their family?

sarah:

Okay, so I’ve only been thinking about this for 10 seconds, but this is my conspiracy theory for why there is a hyped up bully character. I think, and this doesn’t work if you do it with Christmas Eve, but I think it’s the exception that proves the rule. I think a lot of these movies, especially as they get worse, like Harley Quinn or Beautiful Mind or Silver Linings Playbook, they put in these really simplistic bully characters to stand in for years and years or maybe even decades of accumulated kind of ableist trauma stems or all of these side comments that people made over the years that you could kind of take generously or maybe they didn’t mean it like that kind of thing. And over time, that starts to become its own kind of subra within you as to how people are being seen you. So if you take that as, or the bully as a stand-in for all of those collective years of trauma that you accumulate from these little microaggressions or maybe major aggressions both, it is a really silly way of representing all of that in one shitty character that takes up way less script time, way less film time to get the same kind of trauma across.

But if you don’t understand how all of those microaggressions can pile up into one big bully, I think that nuance is lost on you. And I think in this case, I don’t know if I would give the hallmark screenwriter credit for that’s what he was doing, but I think it could have been, I think I might come out for an at bat for him trying to represent trauma in a quick and dirty fashion.

Jeff:

Yeah. I struggle with this a lot because to have no bullies would be to imply that there isn’t, that people are all treated great all the time and that we never bring up disability, which is not obviously accurate to say when people get bullied just like anybody else, obviously.

sarah:

Absolutely.

Jeff:

So I don’t think it’s an answer of we should never do this, but I also though struggle with it often feels like there’s this quiet appeal in these characters that the viewer is to learn this lesson, to learn the lesson, to number one, to not be that person. So don’t be the bully, which is probably a good lesson. But then I worry that even more so there’s this story being told around the need to defend disabled people, that the world is hostile toward them and that your job as a strong able-bodied person is to stand up for the weaker in able disabled character who’s going to fall prey to this. Correct.

sarah:

And cannot, cannot possibly defend themselves.

Jeff:

Yeah. Trevor never,

sarah:

Even in the film, Trevor didn’t defend himself. It was his daughter that came out of defense of him, which I think he may have been, that would’ve been an honor fight at that point. But I think even more so there’s a kind of irony to that argument because the film itself, as in the screenplay, spends a ton of time bullying Trevor through all the seeing tons and how he’s walking down the street and he always looks a bit doe-ish and the constant visual similes for blindness and ignorance. The film itself is bullying him in the absolute, and we’re supposed to look at that bully and be like, and that’s why we can never be ableist and it doesn’t work. It rings hollow because the writers themselves are clearly wildly ableist about how blindness operates in society.

Jeff:

Yeah, absolutely. Absolutely. And it’s also that same, how many times have we seen the story that the way to fix a bully is to help a bully? And I’ve always found this really complexing to me. If I think back to my time in elementary school, I genuinely do not think that if I had helped the people that were bullying me, I do not think they would’ve stopped bullying me because that’s not how bullying works. It’s not like a social credit system where, well, I will pay you $10 and now you’ll stop bullying me. It doesn’t work like that because at the root of it, there’s a power thing going on here, but there’s also a whole internal thing going on here with the individual. And so then what I’m watching this scene, and he, number one, she basically PTSD shames this boy who’s wetted his bed even though he’s much too old to wet his bed, which is pretty obviously, I would say aside that he probably has experienced in things in his life. So she bullies an older guy, and I wonder the type of dude who’s going to pantomime blindness to mock a girl whose father is blind. I don’t think that he is going to react with thanks to her intervention. I feel like

sarah:

I learned my lesson. Yeah.

Jeff:

I feel like he’s going to be, the worst thing that could happen to him is that he’s being saved by the person that he is ridiculing constantly. I don’t think that’s how you overturn that power dynamic. So it seems like such a weird liberal dream that, well, if we just help each other, we can all build forms of community and that’s the high road. Which isn’t to say that you should also slam cupcakes in people’s faces either. I also don’t think that that’s how you resolve bullying, but

sarah:

I feel like we can almost picture the writer’s room conversation, and I think you hit the nail on the head with calling it liberal fantasy writing where they’re in the room and they go, okay, how do we humanize this bully to show that problems are relative and everybody has their own shit they’re going through and somebody calls out, what if we give him some very obvious trauma symptoms like late stage bedwetting. So now you’re introducing this whole subplot that you can choose to take interest in who is abusing this 12 or 15-year-old boy and why isn’t anyone reporting this? So instead you just get the daughter like, Hey man, that’s really not cool, and I’m going to mock your trauma coping systems because you make really shitty blind jokes in the lunchroom, and if you take it at face value, sure. You get the relativism argument of even people who are mean have their own shit going on.

And it’s possible that everybody is suffering in many of the same ways you are, even if you’re not visibly disabled. But now you’re introducing kind of layers of trauma and deity or long-term illness through this bully character that the movie doesn’t have a hope of framing correctly. They can’t even frame simpler disorders correctly. So this bully character becomes really problematic in a film theory sense because you don’t get his story rectified. Nobody attempts to actually help him because they’ve already deemed him an antagonist character and we get no resolution as to what happens to him. So it’s disappointing.

Jeff:

We’re almost supposed to laugh at the big bully who pees the bed, who also I guess could be defined as disabled, like leafy body disabled anyways by unable to control bodily function. So it’s like, ha, that guy suffered a trauma. Let’s laugh and mock him. But also we are not to be mocking the blind character that is off limits.

sarah:

Correct.

Jeff:

Yeah. Now we’re such an interesting example, unintentionally I think of the way that disabled population, the disabled community is segmented off from itself. And so you have people talking about, well, we need to do better by blind people in this movie. And then they’re like, but also we’re going to just throw under the bus this other type of disability that somebody’s experiencing.

sarah:

Well, it kind of reflects the ongoing conversation even within CDS of disclosed and undisclosed disabilities because disclosed are the ones, if I’m being incredibly reductive, getting all the love right now, everybody wants to include the disclosed disabilities, the more obvious ones, the ones where there’s no moral argument that they did it to themselves or et cetera. Not as willing to include people with terminal illness, mental illness, kind of long-term, undisclosed disabilities or disabilities, we can’t quite as readily understand as blindness. And that can maybe be typified through the bully character who has some obvious traumas and isn’t accepted the same way as the guy with the easily recognizable, easy to diagnose relatively unthreatening disclosed disability.

Jeff:

Yeah, definitely. Now the last trope that I want to talk about comes to us toward the end of the film. So this is after sort of the major breakdown. Trevor is having this masculine identity crisis. He doesn’t think he’s a real man, he doesn’t think he’s a real professor. And we get this very bizarro scene in which Trevor goes and stands behind the lectern and asks Peyton if he looks like a professor. And he discloses that ever since he became blind, he does not think that people will see him as a professor anymore. Again, seeing him as a professor and that he will not look like a professor. Unfortunately, he does have an app that will tell him the color of his suit, but the app, if he puts it on himself,

Will not say professor, unfortunately. And this also ultimately culminates at the end of the film in which Peyton goes and gives an impassioned speech, which convinces Trevor that despite his disability, he is a real man and he is a real professor, and this is sort of what he overcomes his insecurities and will take back his job and will create presumably a mass murderer in his daughter as he starts to make out with Peyton in front of her. So we have this trope often in film in which it is the role of the non-disabled character to come in and to convince the disabled character that they’re not that disabled after all. That may be the only disability and life as a bad attitude. And this movie leaned into it heavily.

sarah:

So I have continuing my completely unrealistic film analysis of this piece of shit film. I think there’s a really interesting connection here, and you can take it in multiple directions, especially if you’re a better scholar than me between, and I’m doing this on the spot, so correct me if I’m wrong, masculine hyper ability. So him at the lectern being this amazing prodigal totally deserving professor character who can do no wrong, all the tropes that we established with cis white male academics who historically have been put up on these Greek like pedestals with the rampant academic notion that we just cannot seem to erase. And it actually goes back to what we were saying about the film bullying him itself, all of that, his narrative of masculine hyper ability and how he doesn’t believe that he could do that. Well, blind relies on the audience presumption that you thought until this moment that blindness equals ignorance.

Like you entered the film this way and nothing we have done so far persuades you otherwise. So then the end of the film when what’s her face, Peyton is correcting him. Like, no, I think that more people than just cis white males could succeed in the academy. And it’s possible that academics don’t just look like that he does really even seem to believe it. Then it’s a really stilted kind of, oh, well, maybe agreement that speaks more to the masculine ability narrative continuing to ring true, and he can be able, despite his disability. And the word despite is coming from this ignorance narrative that you assume everyone in the room has, which anyone in Disability Gang would be immediately offended by. Why are you taking it as a given that that’s what I think that’s my five seconds of film theory about the end of that film.

Jeff:

No. So you’ve totally tapped into something that I really have wanted to talk about with this film. Yeah. Because to add another log onto the Beautiful fire, or maybe it’s a fire that you’ve built here. Excellent. Is that the movie also? It absolutely draws your eyes to the fact that his blindness is a recent development. The implication being he was not blind when he became this hyper-masculine failure of strength and knowledge that the blindness came after, and that it is now a threat to

His current standing, despite the fact that we do get a scene of him listening to, I believe it was a Christmas Carol and might’ve been, or was it one of Dick Dick’s novel? He’s listening to an audio book of a Dickens novel while he’s holding the book, and they ask him, why are you holding the book? You’re listening to it. And he is like, oh, how it feels. Okay, chill out, bro. Anyways, oh, and so anyway, it’s interesting that the movie is both trying to say, of course you’re still a professor even though you’re blind. But the movie itself had to backfill this story and say, oh, but he was a prophet before he became blind. So he did it before disability hit.

sarah:

Yeah. So you’re saying it kind of negates the narrative that he could have even become a professor if he wasn’t blind or if he was blind, he wouldn’t have made it.

Jeff:

Who knows? Maybe it’s like, did they need to put that in there because they felt that the audience wouldn’t believe it, that a blind man could be this professor? So they had to add that in, and I don’t know which is worse. Did they need it to be this lost narrative? He lost his wife, he lost his sight. They were allegedly not connected, but that he’s experienced these tremendous losses that Peyton and to a lesser extent, max, the dog will now fill that there’s this void that needs to be filled. And one of those voids is his relationship with his daughter, which is strange since the end of the marriage. And the other void is his masculinity. He’s lost his masculinity because he lost his wife and he lost his sight. He’s been castrated and that only a woman being reeded to his life. Can he regain that? And once he’s regained it, what does he get back his job? He’s now allowed to be a pro again because the students and the girl have come together, and now he’s a whole man again, even though he’s still has flaws,

sarah:

Count on Jeff to do a psychoanalytic reading of literally any film he has given.

Jeff:

I’m just saying maybe the walking stick is a penis.

sarah:

Do you thank Deleuze and Guattari directly for that, or does that go in the work cited?

Jeff:

I think that was a Lacan. I think that was more of a Lacanian take.

sarah:

Yeah, I think that’s sort of a Lacan. Well shut out, Jacques Lacan.

Jeff:

I think that Lahan hated this film because,

sarah:

Well, according to your reading, he would’ve loved it.

Jeff:

I’m not saying he wouldn’t have been titillated by it. Oh yeah. I just don’t think he would’ve liked it.

sarah:

Jacques Lacan on masculine hyper ability seen through the body.

Jeff:

Yes,

Mvll Crimes:

Exactly.

Jeff:

So as always, invalid culture is of course a completely rigorous and scientific endeavor, and we have developed a completely scientific way of measuring the quality of films. It is of course our invalid culture rating scale.

sarah:

Correct.

Jeff:

We are going to go through our questions here and see where this film lands on the invalid culture scale. As always, we are playing by golf rules, which means the lower the score the better. So let’s get this started. On a scale of one to five, with five being the least, how accurate does this film portray disability?

sarah:

Are we talking about just whether or not the protagonist was accurately blind one? Yeah.

Jeff:

Did it do a good job of presenting blindness or was it way out in the stratosphere about what blindness is?

sarah:

Well, I think you said the actor was actually blind. Right. So what…

Jeff:

Actor was, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they did a good job of it.

sarah:

No, I think the film was actively mocking him, but in terms of the portrayal of the protagonist being blind, I have to give that a one.

Jeff:

Yeah. I am going to give this a 2.5 is my view on it. I understand that he was fairly new to his blindness, but it also just felt really odd to me that he didn’t seem to understand how to be blind, nor was he actually actively trying to find ways to be blind. I found it odd that all of the solutions to his problems were externally generated, but also he was never animating the finding of solutions. He was always just kind of standing there being like, wow, I’m just going to have to keep running into posts. The beginning of the movie starts with him giving this sort of human rights rant about the legal code against the construction site and being like, there’s not obstructional ball. And you’re like, oh, okay. He’s like an advocate, but then routinely throughout the movie, he just gets completely blown over by everybody and everything, and so I’m like, I don’t know. Yeah, he’s new to it, but that felt a little bit, yeah. So I’m going to revise it. I’m going to give it a two, two out of five.

sarah:

Yeah, I feel you. I think that’s a good consideration to keep in mind.

Jeff:

On a scale of one to five, with five being the hardest, how hard was it to get through this film?

sarah:

Oh, wow. Four. The pacing kills this. This could have been a short film, like 25, 30 minutes, and you would’ve lost nothing.

Jeff:

Yeah, I gave this a five. I feel like this was one of the harder ones to get through. It had both so much and so little like all at once. There were lots of little side plots, the bully side plot, the construction side plot, that learning how to train a guide dog side plot, whether or not he would have a dog. His divorce, the Chad side plot, there was so much going on, but yet it also felt like nothing happened in this film. And that’s, I think never a good sign.

sarah:

What if it was the Banality of Day-to-Day life and how we choose to invest or divest in different parts of ourselves, and he went full hundred percent investment in Peyton and Blindness at the expense of literally everything.

Jeff:

His job. That’s actually why they let him go. Had nothing to do with the construction. They were just like, he is obsessed with his dog trainer. We think there’s a lawsuit coming. We have to get this guy off campus.

sarah:

You haven’t been to work in a week. That’s why we’re letting you go. It’s not the blind thing, and he walks away. It was definitely the blind thing.

Jeff:

Definitely the blind thing. On a scale of one to five, with five being the maximum, how often did you laugh at things that were not intended to be funny?

sarah:

Not as much as Christmas Evil, unfortunately. I would say 2.5. There were some funny moments, but a lot of it was just so dull.

Jeff:

Yeah, I would say I gave this a three. There were a few times where I was chuckling. I mean, I was laughing a lot at just the sheer volume of Christmas. I understand that this is Hallmark, and this is their method. Every scene will be the vomit of Christmas. But there is something legitimately hilarious about seeing a professor’s office in a university in America that is covered in Christmas. Trees is funny. That is funny. And also the dean or chair had literal wrapped gifts on his table. Love that. Literally, what a flex. Bring

sarah:

Back the spirit of Christmas.

Jeff:

Yeah, love it. So I leave it a three, but I agree with you largely this was not as entertaining as I would’ve enjoyed.

sarah:

Amen.

Jeff:

So then last but certainly not least, on a scale of one to five, with five being the most, how many steps back has this film put Disabled people?

sarah:

I think in terms of disclosed disability or disabilities that you can see and readily apprehend and interact with and are fairly obvious to the casual viewer, it does a pretty okay job with OSHA violations and some standard troubles that come with heart of sight. I think in retrospect, only because of the conversation we had today, this film really does undisclosed disability dirty. So for every point that I can award it for being super woke to an extent about some of the hardships of blindness, it felt like it was being reported to me by a 12-year-old girl who had recently read the A ODA, which I’m not saying there’s a problem with, but if the screenplay writer is above the age of 12 years old, I am expecting a little bit more depth. Right. You said golf score.

Jeff:

Yeah. High is bad. One is good. That’s a lot of steps back.

sarah:

That’s a lot. That’s quite a few steps back.

Jeff:

Quite a few steps back. I was more generous on this film. I gave it a two in the sense that I think, as you said, I don’t think they did a ton of harm per se. There was nothing that really sort of stood out. I do take rock off, I think for this repetitive masculine disability wrap up, this insistence that if you’re male and disabled, that you inevitably are going to have these weird hangups about your power proficiency, sexuality, whatever. But I also don’t think that that’s the most egregious of sins, so I’m going to give it a 2.5.

sarah:

It felt kind of tokenism plus not just blindness, but male blindness and what your hangups are going to be as a result.

Jeff:

Yes. Okay, so tabulated our scores together

sarah:

With

Jeff:

The score of 24. My Christmas guide are: Regrets, I have a few.

sarah:

That’s like the second tier, right? That’s not bad.

Jeff:

That’s pretty good.

sarah:

You know what? Not bad.

Jeff:

It didn’t blow it Hallmark. Congratulations.

sarah:

Not on this one. Anyway,

Jeff:

It’s not art. And perhaps because it was so shallow it couldn’t do more harm.

sarah:

That’s true. Yeah. If the dialogue had a little more depth to it, it might’ve actually done more overall damage.

Jeff:

And this concludes another episode of Invalid Culture. Thank you for joining us. I hope you enjoyed it or not. Do you have a film you would like for us to cover on the pod, or even better? Do you want to be a victim on invalid culture? Head to word to our website, invalid culture.com and submit. We would love to hear from you. That’s it for this episode. Catch you next month and until then, stay invalid.

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